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lemony

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I've been calorie counting for a while, and at the beginning i would have really bad binge sessions. Lately i've been getting much better, but today it happened again and it has made me realise that really i am not in control of this at all.

I cooked two chicken breasts tonight - one for dinner and one for a cold salad tomorrow, and i ended up eating them both though i was full. I also sometimes buy kit-kat packs for a treat once a day, which i always used to binge on so i stopped buying them and I was fine about not having them in the house. But because i was doing so well, i bought some today and i have eaten four. I know an extra chicken breast and four kit-kats is not the end of the world, but for me it's the emotional reaction to food which is worse than the calories. I was not hungry, I did not enjoy the extra food and I barely tasted it.

I just have no control, i should be able to leave a portion of cooked chicken alone but i can't. It's so disheartening.

What's the point in losing the weight if it just makes me irrational and obsessive?

It feels rubbish.
 
Hi...

Someone will be able to answer your questions better than I can but I feel for you. I do this too xx
 
Thanks, I know there's really nothing for people to say, it just made me feel a bit better to type it out. There are a few of these posts but i guess it's different when it happens to you personally. Feeling better now though, a little bit silly, but calmer. I suppose at least we all (those of us that do this or similar) know that it is not right: a lot of people do this everyday without thought, probably a lot of us here used to do it, but when we begin weightloss, self-awareness is so much higher. So, at least we recognise the issues we have. Maybe one day we'll fix them.
 
I've been calorie counting for a while, and at the beginning i would have really bad binge sessions. Lately i've been getting much better, but today it happened again and it has made me realise that really i am not in control of this at all.

I cooked two chicken breasts tonight - one for dinner and one for a cold salad tomorrow, and i ended up eating them both though i was full. I also sometimes buy kit-kat packs for a treat once a day, which i always used to binge on so i stopped buying them and I was fine about not having them in the house. But because i was doing so well, i bought some today and i have eaten four. I know an extra chicken breast and four kit-kats is not the end of the world, but for me it's the emotional reaction to food which is worse than the calories. I was not hungry, I did not enjoy the extra food and I barely tasted it.

I just have no control, i should be able to leave a portion of cooked chicken alone but i can't. It's so disheartening.

What's the point in losing the weight if it just makes me irrational and obsessive?

It feels rubbish.

Hi Lemony, I know you'll probably get a lot of reply's saying this - please don't feel bad about your binge.

The food didn't taste as good as you thought it would right? So use that to your advantage, binges never taste as good as the build up, thinking about what your going to eat.

You said in your post that your not in control of this? If your not, then who is? Thats the big thing, you are the one in control, dont let cravings control you. Things like chocolate are addictive, thats why I stay well clear. You are totally in control, show your body and mind who's boss.

Hope this helps! Keep strong!
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i have started to do this less now but before i could eat a multipack of 8 crisps in a go ! i would have no control either, i dont really know why i do it it is something i have tried to address with little improvement, i think these habits do not come over night therefore will not go wither night either, a bit like a diet its a working progress

chin up xx
 
Thats what i used to do. Now i just look at whatever i shouldnt be eatin and think to myself, "If i eat this then all my hard work going down the drain and how fat it will make me". If i still want it, i go out for a walk. But you will get stronger as you go along. If you binge, dont think you have to give up counting calories. Just carry on.
 
I agree with NumberOne, the hardest part of a binge is the guilt afterwards and the temptation to think 'what the hell I'll start again tomorrow'...you have to pick yourself up straight away and get back on. I know how you feel, I binge periodically even despite a great deal of control most of the time...as regards having treats in the house, I find it hard to leave them in the cupboard so I make sure I never have enough treats in the house to really effect my calorie count if I was to binge eg I get the multipack (4 in a pack) of the children's dairy milk bars...they are about 120 cals each so if I have an awful day and hit the cupboard I can't do too much damage!
You can do it, it's a learning curve, you are training yourself out of bad habits. You could try the technique of imagining the tempation as mouldy and covered in maggots, think of them wiggling around...it helps me!!
Keep going! You can do it! Don't lose committment.
 
Thanks everyone. I'm just so close to my goal, maybe i'm worried about what will happen when I get there, so i'm bingeing because i'm not prepared for the next step. I'm quite sure this is my problem now, whereas before my eating sessions were because of insecurity. Now i'm just stalling myself, and I know it. When i binge i never (now) go over maintenance, but it's still frustrating.

Feeling fine today, usually the day after is hard. But i'm on track, i haven't restricted my calories to make up for the binge or feel like rushing to the biscuits today.

Thanks everyone, it's good that people are supportive of eachother's experiences - good or bad.
 
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