Yasmine
One last chance
Having only 11lbs left to go before I start eating again, refeeding has been on the brain for a long time now and I have to say that I am petrified.
I know it's very common for people to be scared when it comes to leaving 'the comfort zone' as I like to call it.
Being on LT I never had to worry because I knew what I was taking and how many calories are in the shakes. But now, I'm going to be eating again and I am so scared.
My main fears are gaining the weight back of course and developing an eating disorder like anorexia. I know that I have enough mind and will power to not allow myself to do certain things when it comes to it, but LT has had such an impact on the way I see food and weight issues, that I'm afriad that I might turn into a completely different person.
Being in my family, it makes it all the more harder. There is no way that my father will contribute to the health changes that I'm hoping to enforce and neither is my older sister.
Me and Nasreen are pretty much the only ones who are actually going to be the only ones in the family who are going to be eating healthily. Which means I have to do my shopping for two different kinds of lifestyles.
Maybe I'm overreacting, I don't know, but it's something I know is going to cause a bit of a problem, kind of like a conflict of some sort.
Because I know my dad is defintely going to complain about the amounts of food that I'm going to be eating because they are going to be so small. He's going to discourage me, tell me that I'm going to make myself ill, force me to eat when I don't want to and it's not something I'm going to be able to cope with. I need all the support I can get to encourage me and to tell me that I can do this without screwing up.
I'm fed up of LT and I can't wait to start eating again, but I am terrified.
If I was to even gain 1lb I can assure you I would obsess, freak out and end up doing something really stupid
All the technicality of the refeeding programme, all the measurements having to be taken, what if I do something wrong? :cry:
I know it's very common for people to be scared when it comes to leaving 'the comfort zone' as I like to call it.
Being on LT I never had to worry because I knew what I was taking and how many calories are in the shakes. But now, I'm going to be eating again and I am so scared.
My main fears are gaining the weight back of course and developing an eating disorder like anorexia. I know that I have enough mind and will power to not allow myself to do certain things when it comes to it, but LT has had such an impact on the way I see food and weight issues, that I'm afriad that I might turn into a completely different person.
Being in my family, it makes it all the more harder. There is no way that my father will contribute to the health changes that I'm hoping to enforce and neither is my older sister.
Me and Nasreen are pretty much the only ones who are actually going to be the only ones in the family who are going to be eating healthily. Which means I have to do my shopping for two different kinds of lifestyles.
Maybe I'm overreacting, I don't know, but it's something I know is going to cause a bit of a problem, kind of like a conflict of some sort.
Because I know my dad is defintely going to complain about the amounts of food that I'm going to be eating because they are going to be so small. He's going to discourage me, tell me that I'm going to make myself ill, force me to eat when I don't want to and it's not something I'm going to be able to cope with. I need all the support I can get to encourage me and to tell me that I can do this without screwing up.
I'm fed up of LT and I can't wait to start eating again, but I am terrified.
If I was to even gain 1lb I can assure you I would obsess, freak out and end up doing something really stupid
All the technicality of the refeeding programme, all the measurements having to be taken, what if I do something wrong? :cry: