gigglegirl
New Member
Hi all,
phew plucking up the courage to join and even write this has been hard I am at a crossroads and I need to do something drastic I am not even sure which way one of the roads at my crossroads is heading but I know I need to make the right choice. I am 33 and have four children all five and under. My youngest is 7 months old and at the moment I am still breastfeeding her but think I may have to stop if I take some action to try and lose this weight I seem to have accumulated over the years! I weigh just over 15 stone and am 5ft 9 I have tried unsucessfully to lose weight over the past ten years. At my lowest I was a size 14 and now really should be a 22 or 22 but am still squeezing into 18s! elasticated waists and hipster trousers - so attractive! I have done Weight Watchers quite successfully but just can't seem to do it t the moment. I am a very positive and very happy person generally and love to be busy. I run two businesses and a toddler group and am on several committees, I fundraise for charity and mainly love my life. Anyway as a youngster I had the opposite problem - I couldn't put on weight and loved excercise. Now I hate excercise and find it painful and I bnge eat (had five donuts one after the other on Saturday just so my husband didn't know I'd had them!) I have signed up to do the moonwalk in London in July with all my cousins and Aunties, all size 12 or under and we have to walk 26 miles in our bras at night! Worst thing is it was my idea - was supposed to motivated me but I just can't stop this binge cycle. I keep thinking, it'll be my last day, I haven't slept, I'm hungry because I'm breastfeeding and other excuses. I have to do something drastic as my body is really getting my down. It is affecting ky realtionship with my husband as I am not at all interested in anything physical and I feel totally unattractive (not due to him!) It is really getting me down and I don't want my kids to get this bad attiude to food. My Mum and Dad are lovely people who live near but don't get it as they are thin! Mum just says - eat less and excercise more - I know that I just can't do it! Which is bizarre as I am a strong willed woman and I know all the theory so why can't I do this. I am considering Lipotrim as an option but don't know if my family would support me doing this or whether I would find it too tough having to still make kids foods and go to places where there is food. Bt there i always an excuse - kids parties, friends wedding in April, Dad's 60th in May, holiday at end of May etc.. etc.. I love food - good and bad and I do eat healthy stuff too so why is this SOOOOOOOOOO hard. Have plucked up the courage to go and see my doctor on Thursday as I would need their permission to do Lipotrim anyway as I have epilepsy (totally controlled by meds). I am thinking of writing a note explaining how I feel (maybe just copy and paste this essay!!!) so I don't wimp out and put my usual happy face on and say oh I'd just like a bit of diet advice but I'm ok really! I'm not - I feel down about it - obsess about it and my knees and hips are starting to ache all the time, I don't wear skirts or dresses as my thighs rub together and when I sit for any length of time I can feel pressure sores (not really sores but can't think of another word). The reason Lipotrim appeals is that it may a) help break my addictive binge habits I have when I am bored or low b) stop me picking which I am a total nightmare for c) has no grey areas - I tend to cheat and stretch them as far as I can d) has fast results which I feel mentally I need at the moment before I become generally depressed rather than just depressed about this one area of my life.
Any ideas and suggestions gratefully received!
Sorry for the essay!
xx
phew plucking up the courage to join and even write this has been hard I am at a crossroads and I need to do something drastic I am not even sure which way one of the roads at my crossroads is heading but I know I need to make the right choice. I am 33 and have four children all five and under. My youngest is 7 months old and at the moment I am still breastfeeding her but think I may have to stop if I take some action to try and lose this weight I seem to have accumulated over the years! I weigh just over 15 stone and am 5ft 9 I have tried unsucessfully to lose weight over the past ten years. At my lowest I was a size 14 and now really should be a 22 or 22 but am still squeezing into 18s! elasticated waists and hipster trousers - so attractive! I have done Weight Watchers quite successfully but just can't seem to do it t the moment. I am a very positive and very happy person generally and love to be busy. I run two businesses and a toddler group and am on several committees, I fundraise for charity and mainly love my life. Anyway as a youngster I had the opposite problem - I couldn't put on weight and loved excercise. Now I hate excercise and find it painful and I bnge eat (had five donuts one after the other on Saturday just so my husband didn't know I'd had them!) I have signed up to do the moonwalk in London in July with all my cousins and Aunties, all size 12 or under and we have to walk 26 miles in our bras at night! Worst thing is it was my idea - was supposed to motivated me but I just can't stop this binge cycle. I keep thinking, it'll be my last day, I haven't slept, I'm hungry because I'm breastfeeding and other excuses. I have to do something drastic as my body is really getting my down. It is affecting ky realtionship with my husband as I am not at all interested in anything physical and I feel totally unattractive (not due to him!) It is really getting me down and I don't want my kids to get this bad attiude to food. My Mum and Dad are lovely people who live near but don't get it as they are thin! Mum just says - eat less and excercise more - I know that I just can't do it! Which is bizarre as I am a strong willed woman and I know all the theory so why can't I do this. I am considering Lipotrim as an option but don't know if my family would support me doing this or whether I would find it too tough having to still make kids foods and go to places where there is food. Bt there i always an excuse - kids parties, friends wedding in April, Dad's 60th in May, holiday at end of May etc.. etc.. I love food - good and bad and I do eat healthy stuff too so why is this SOOOOOOOOOO hard. Have plucked up the courage to go and see my doctor on Thursday as I would need their permission to do Lipotrim anyway as I have epilepsy (totally controlled by meds). I am thinking of writing a note explaining how I feel (maybe just copy and paste this essay!!!) so I don't wimp out and put my usual happy face on and say oh I'd just like a bit of diet advice but I'm ok really! I'm not - I feel down about it - obsess about it and my knees and hips are starting to ache all the time, I don't wear skirts or dresses as my thighs rub together and when I sit for any length of time I can feel pressure sores (not really sores but can't think of another word). The reason Lipotrim appeals is that it may a) help break my addictive binge habits I have when I am bored or low b) stop me picking which I am a total nightmare for c) has no grey areas - I tend to cheat and stretch them as far as I can d) has fast results which I feel mentally I need at the moment before I become generally depressed rather than just depressed about this one area of my life.
Any ideas and suggestions gratefully received!
Sorry for the essay!
xx