SO MUCH TO LOSE!
Must do it this time
Were do I start,
Its the same old story.......I started cd and It was going fantastically,then I went on my holidays and that went great too,but when I got back I couldnt get back into cd I just seemed to have spiralled out of control.
I cant stand myself right now,its so unfair because I know how great I felt on cd,I really was on top of the world,I never felt or looked better so why do I find it so hard to get back into it,I cant understand it.
I suppose Im just looking for some words of encouragement and wisdom from all you successful cd`ers out there,I feel like such a failure Ive put back on around 10lbs and i feel as big as a house right now,im actually crying as I write this I really hate myself and the worst part of it is I know its all my own fault,I havent been on here for ages(just lurking) because in so full of self loathing for myself,pathetic I know.
Everyone keeps saying when are you going back on cd which makes me think that they are only asking because Im such a fatty and need to do it soon!!!!!
I do apoligise for such a long and moaning rant,
thanx for reading
Elaine x:break_diet:
Its the same old story.......I started cd and It was going fantastically,then I went on my holidays and that went great too,but when I got back I couldnt get back into cd I just seemed to have spiralled out of control.
I cant stand myself right now,its so unfair because I know how great I felt on cd,I really was on top of the world,I never felt or looked better so why do I find it so hard to get back into it,I cant understand it.
I suppose Im just looking for some words of encouragement and wisdom from all you successful cd`ers out there,I feel like such a failure Ive put back on around 10lbs and i feel as big as a house right now,im actually crying as I write this I really hate myself and the worst part of it is I know its all my own fault,I havent been on here for ages(just lurking) because in so full of self loathing for myself,pathetic I know.
Everyone keeps saying when are you going back on cd which makes me think that they are only asking because Im such a fatty and need to do it soon!!!!!
I do apoligise for such a long and moaning rant,
thanx for reading
Elaine x:break_diet: