ArtyJoe - My Final Journey

Artyjoe

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I am going to try LL one more time in the hope of ending my weightloss nightmare and starting a weight controlled life.

As of next week it will be a whole year since I came off LL and have played with CD/WLR/Rosemary Conley and LL and have managed to gain 20 pounds in that year. I have decided I'd rather have three/four months of struggle than waste another year moaning about my weight. No matter how many times I fall off LL I am going to continue to pick myself up and carry on until I reach target...of course I'm hoping I won't fall off, but if I do I'm not going to throw in the towel again and whinge about it, I'm going to accept that I'm human and start afresh the next day.

I have had a bloody awful year with mum being hospitalised for 5 months and daily visits, my own health scare and subsequent operation, my childs ill health in the January, abandonment by my father again and my dog was put down the day I returned from honeymoon...my wedding day being the one wonderful highlight of the year and I'm hoping 2006 will be remembered for that eventually rather than the year from hell.

Therefore, I am going to stop beating myself up over the 20 pounds weight gain, not huge in the grand scheme of the year I've had, and get back on track. If I'm lucky I'll get rid of those 20 pounds before 2007 arrives so I'll start 2007 afresh and forget 2006 ever happened (dietwise).

I have four dates in the diary with food attached before the New Year, but I will plan to eat, knowing what I'm letting msyelf in for, and then make a decision on the day. I am going to commit to 28 days at a time and hope to be at target for the Easter holidays.

I'm eating my favourite foods tonight and baked beans and sausages weds eve (for some reason they really played on my mind last time on LL!), the last pieces of rubbish that are in the fridge and the water is arriving this afternoon. I don't feel strong of mind this time around, but then I don't expect anyone does after falling on and off for a year, but I'm positive and am resigned to it...I know that sounds negative but I think sometimes with this diet you need to be quite low to get back on.

My first 28 days finishes on Christmas eve so can't decide to have a week off and then start again after boxing day...mmm, will have to think about that one.

Anyway, will use this thread to try and divert my attention from the diet if I can and hopefully get some help if I come unstuck. Fingers crossed, this thread will end before Easter :)

Joe
 
Joe, it sounds like you are putting yourself first after a very difficult period in your life by getting back on LL and that you are determined. That's a recipe for success ! I wish you all the best and look forward to hearing about your weight loss.
 
Wishing you all the very best Joe. As you say, it needs to be a case of keeping on trucking to get the weight off and not letting the hiccups stop you. We're with ya mate ;)
 
Thanks for your support guys...I am so nervous this time. I feel a bit like I'll be a 'failure' if I don't do the first 28 days, which is ridiculous as I've been failing for a whole year! I remember being this nervous the first day I started LL, so I'm taking that as a good sign as first time around I did 7.5 stones.

My goals are 20 pounds off by January 1st...this is the 20 I gained this year.

2 more stones gone by April...of course this could be achieved by March, but I'm being a little pessimistic so as not to put myself under too much mental pressure...this will achieve my original target...can you believe I stopped with
only 2 stones to go - doh!

Have also decided though that if my legs still rub together when I reach target that I'll keep going until they stop, at least when wearing jeans!

Please say a few words for me in your prayers, I'm going to need all the help I can get...DQ you will be in mine tonight!

Day 1 tomorrow - eek.

Joe x
 
Good luck tomorrow Joe. I'd say just take every day as it comes and pat yourself on the back for every little achievement.

If you try and break those 28 days into 4 weeks, 5lbs a week doesn't seem that hard a target to achieve, as it will include your initial water/carb loss, so I am sure that you can achieve this.

I haven't had chance to give you a proper reply to your last email yet, but I will soon. I'll keep an eye out for your posts and send you some strong good luck vibes.

I hope that after a day or so on the diet that your positive vibes return. Don't beat yourself up - you are right it doesn't achieve anything! You've had a lot to contend with over the year but, lets face it, you look great at the moment and can only look better as you get nearer your personal goals (rubbing or not!).

Good luck!
 
Thanks Lottie! I have just finished saying good bye to the foods I know will irritate me, strangely enough I wanted tinned BB and sausages but couldn't face them tonight, hope they won't come back to haunt me from tomorrow! I am taking my water to bed so when I wake in the morning I'll be on LL...still have packs from last time so will have done a good part of the day before joining the group in the evening.

Am frightened of being optimistic but am making all the right moves if that makes sense?

By the time you get to your final dress fitting I should be on my way to target :)

See you on day 1 ! Joe x
 
Hi guys, day 1 done and dusted, day 2 okay so far!

The group was great, had a good chat to the LLC and really need to do some work on my self sabotaging chatter box, feel I'm in the right place to do this. We are taking 28 days at a time so I don't feel overwhelmed and have to make decisions about Christmas yet, I'll wait until 21st and decide then.

Always underestimate how often this diet makes me go to the loo!

Need to start my exercise regeime again, but I always feel reluctant in winter for some reason...I hate the cold :)

Hope everyone else is doing okay today.

Joe x
 
Hi Joe,

Well done on day one! Don't worry about the exercise yet until you've got the first few days out of the way, otherwise you might be trying to do too much at once. Mind you, if you do exercise that doesn't feel like exercise (a brisk walk at lunch; a run after your little-un in the park; pleasing mr arty joe ;-) ), then it will break you in gently.

Good luck hun xx
 
Day 4 nearly done! Struggled today as went shopping in Kingston for hours and didn't have a shake before I went, luckily I had an old Cambridge bar hidden in my bag so had that, must make sure I don't do that again. Am quite pleased iwth myself for getting to day 4 as I am so sleep deprived I can't believe it (my baby hasn't been well for 13 days) and it's TOTM, so a double whammy. I did struggle on Friday but managed to get through on just the 4 packs, I thought i'd end up needing/wanting more and I nearly did.

Am hoping to go swimming tomorrow and try to integrate some exercise into my plan...it is definitely a long term plan and have a spa membership so will have to get started soon!

Hope everyone has had a good weekend, Christmas shopping gave me a nice buzz :)

Joe
 
glad you got a buzz from the shopping and you've made it to day 4 yay!

about the exercise though, if you're already knackered right now why not wait a little bit longer so you don't wear yourself out completely? it's hard enough starting out on the diet without a sick baby to look after and exercising on top of that too. Once you're used to being on the diet again then exercise would be great but it sounds like you might be going to overdo things if you start now.
 
Hi Joe:) ,

I've just been reading your thread and I wanted you to know how impressed I am with your attitude about losing weight and not giving up.:D

It really struck a chord with me when you said on one of your posts that you sometimes have to be low to be able to start again.

I also believe that that is when we have to dig deep into ourselves and find that last bit of fight and motivation again, isn't it?

You obviously have, especially with a poorly baby and TOTM!!!!:eek:

You're doing great. Be kind to yourself..:)

Lacey....:D
 
glad you got a buzz from the shopping and you've made it to day 4 yay!

about the exercise though, if you're already knackered right now why not wait a little bit longer so you don't wear yourself out completely? it's hard enough starting out on the diet without a sick baby to look after and exercising on top of that too. Once you're used to being on the diet again then exercise would be great but it sounds like you might be going to overdo things if you start now.

hi Joe/Kati

Yes, I completely agree - you don't want to put too much pressure on yourself until it gets to that 'feels easy' stage. Especially if you are sleep deprived at the moment. Mind you, you don't have to swim the channel in your first few sessions, you could always just go and chill in the other pampering facilities of your spa and make yourself feel lovely. You deserve to treat yourself for getting to day 4 - I think that you were right about putting yourself under too much pressure to do it before the wedding.

Know what you mean about trouble sleeping though - I've had insomnia the last few nights and I was shattered last night and had an early night, but then I've been awake since 2:45! I thought I'd come on here for a bit and try and tire myself out so I can go back to bed!

Anyway, looking forward to hearing more updates...
 
Thanks Isis for your support and Nikki, I think I'll take your advice and stay away from the swim/gym at the moment, but may well take Lotties advice and use the spa element. I may pop in and have a steam and a saune and jaccuzi, just to have a chill down. Am doing well today (hate saying that in case I jinx myself), have done a quarter of my water which is good as usually I'm cramming it all in at 8pm!

I am needing to buy chocolates for my staff for Christmas but can't cope with teh Thorntons website at the moment, not sure how to get around that one - eek!

Joe
 
Groan, got a cold today, been fighting it off for days but it's finally hit...Lemsips are looking good on the shelf!

I've ran out of cappucino flavourings on CD...although I'm on LL I've kept some packs as I really need my coffee...am trying the vanilla pack but it's not quite as nice, hopefully I'll get used to it or I'll be doing LL alongside CD at this rate!

Have decided I'm not going to get weighed tomorrow which will be my weeks up, I'm going to try not to get weighed for another week...however much I lose won't be enough so I just don't see the point. This is also the first time in my life I haven't actually wanted to get on the scales, normally I'm on every morning and night time, so I'm embracing that while it lasts.

I think the reason is becuase I know LL is my last line of defence, I have no choice but for it to work so however much I do or don't lose a week, I can't come off it or do anything about it, so I'm just going to keep trucking on until I get to target.

If I can get to day 28 without weighing myself that may be more of a miracle than getting to day 28 in itself :)
 
wow that is long time on ll to not get weighed! Im impressed. I think it is a good thing that you're not like me and hung up on what the scales say. I have been wanting to know every day what my weight is and hate when it doesn't move.

I have been wondering if I'd be happy with my size if I didnt know what I weigh but I've still got a big belly so probably not. The numbers do mean too much to me though so I'm pleased for you that you're going to do that.

I'm just getting over a bad cold so I sympathise with you there, it's so awful. I came out of ketosis and took the lemsips because I couldn't take it any more (I should have been a man since I think I get man flu lol) and I was absolutely starving so strugling to get back into it now (really really struggling!)

I hope the cold doesn't get too bad or last too long :)
 
Hi Nikki, the main reason I'm trying to stay off them this time is the scales really do dictate what kind of mood I'm going to be in. Until last week when I started LL I weighed myself every morning and every evening and depressed myself at both points!

This time I nkow I can't come off LL so what does it matter what I'm losing, so long as I am...of course this attitude might change tomorrow, but at the moment I think it's helping and my mood this week has certainly been improved. i think once I get rid of the 20 pounds that I regained this year then I'll be jumping back on them again with excitement, wheras at the moment it's just to get back to square one so the excitement isn't there, and even a 14 pound loss just wouldn't be enough :)

I am so hoping that my throat doesn't get much more painful as I really don't want to take the lemsips, at the moment it is manageable with paracetamol and sinex, but if it hurts much more then I'm going to have to take something to ease it. I am assumign I am in ketosis so really wouldn't want to come out of it unless I absolutely had to...fingers crossed.

I hope you get back into ketosis soon and stop the struggle, the first few days really are bloody awful aren't they?

Joe x
 
Hi Nikki, the main reason I'm trying to stay off them this time is the scales really do dictate what kind of mood I'm going to be in. Until last week when I started LL I weighed myself every morning and every evening and depressed myself at both points!

This time I nkow I can't come off LL so what does it matter what I'm losing, so long as I am...of course this attitude might change tomorrow, but at the moment I think it's helping and my mood this week has certainly been improved. i think once I get rid of the 20 pounds that I regained this year then I'll be jumping back on them again with excitement, wheras at the moment it's just to get back to square one so the excitement isn't there, and even a 14 pound loss just wouldn't be enough :)

I am so hoping that my throat doesn't get much more painful as I really don't want to take the lemsips, at the moment it is manageable with paracetamol and sinex, but if it hurts much more then I'm going to have to take something to ease it. I am assumign I am in ketosis so really wouldn't want to come out of it unless I absolutely had to...fingers crossed.

I hope you get back into ketosis soon and stop the struggle, the first few days really are bloody awful aren't they?

Joe x

Hi Joe,

You sound as though you've really got your head-screwed on this time, I'm really impressed. To not weigh yourself is genius and I think a stroke of brilliance, if you know that you will get down and sabotagie (know not a word) if you don't see the results that you want. Also, well done on resisting the lemsips as it really is the ketosis that makes this diet bearable, so well done. Maybe you could put an offer out to do swapsies on the Coffee flavoured shakes? I'm seeing my CDC in about 2 weeks, so if you haven't had any before then, let me know and I could always get some on your behalf - just mail/PM me.

It's your dinner party this weekend isn't it, how are you going to cope with the guests eating/drinking and you not? Or have to a different plan?

I keep looking in the wrong place for your diary, which is why I haven't checked in for a few days, but I'll make a note to remember! Have a great day and weekend - perhaps get your hubby to order from that horrible chocolate store for you, or buy them alcohol instead!!
 
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