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has started again!!
As you prob know, I didnt see my CDC this week, this is the one who has never weighed me nor called to see how I am doing or even measured me. I accepted the no scales/tape thing, after all I am a big girl (!!) now and if I lie I lie to myself after all. However when she didnt show this week, the camels back broke!
Following Minimins advice, I emailed her, saying sorry she couldnt make it and thanks for her services, but I now had had to obtain my packs elsewhere. Her reply was that she was at my house, 7.30 on the dot, knocked & rang but no reply, she said no lights and no sound from the house. I am absolutely 110% positive that all four of us were home then. I had just retd from Brownies with my daughter, my 14yr old was home as was DH. I just dont understand what happened. I know in the past she had said that she trouble remembering which house was mine....... I just reiterated my apologies, but have now burnt my bridges in that direction. Feel a bit sick actually, as dont like letting anyone down, and truthfully not sure if I did. (Gut feeling is I didnt)
Any how, just spoke to new CDC, sounds pleasant but, for me, her timings are a bit tricky. (She works when I dont) She said I can collect my packs from her OH, no problem, whenver she is out, and she is happy to take me on. I asked if she weighs her clients etc and the reply was " OH, I have some scales and a tape measure somewhere about if you want......"
Rock & a hard place time! Do I effectively go it alone and rely on you fab folks for my counselling and support or do I (as I confess I have just done...) just go back to my old ways, eat what I want , when I want and b***er any diets!
Am I asking too much of a CDC, to take an interest, weight & otherwise?
Please help. My slippery slope to decline has really begun, and I :break_diet:know if I cant pull out fast, then I am lost again, and right now I feel thats what I deserve....
Following Minimins advice, I emailed her, saying sorry she couldnt make it and thanks for her services, but I now had had to obtain my packs elsewhere. Her reply was that she was at my house, 7.30 on the dot, knocked & rang but no reply, she said no lights and no sound from the house. I am absolutely 110% positive that all four of us were home then. I had just retd from Brownies with my daughter, my 14yr old was home as was DH. I just dont understand what happened. I know in the past she had said that she trouble remembering which house was mine....... I just reiterated my apologies, but have now burnt my bridges in that direction. Feel a bit sick actually, as dont like letting anyone down, and truthfully not sure if I did. (Gut feeling is I didnt)
Any how, just spoke to new CDC, sounds pleasant but, for me, her timings are a bit tricky. (She works when I dont) She said I can collect my packs from her OH, no problem, whenver she is out, and she is happy to take me on. I asked if she weighs her clients etc and the reply was " OH, I have some scales and a tape measure somewhere about if you want......"
Rock & a hard place time! Do I effectively go it alone and rely on you fab folks for my counselling and support or do I (as I confess I have just done...) just go back to my old ways, eat what I want , when I want and b***er any diets!
Am I asking too much of a CDC, to take an interest, weight & otherwise?
Please help. My slippery slope to decline has really begun, and I :break_diet:know if I cant pull out fast, then I am lost again, and right now I feel thats what I deserve....