Originally posted this on another thread but thought may be useful here too!
Hi,
I'm not sure where to post this, so anyone feel free to move if if they see fit.
Anyway, just thought I'd write some ramblings, about the good things about a VLCD second time round.
By June last year I'd lost 6 stone on a combination of LL/CD. I remember telling my counsellor that I'd never be fat again, and she told me that I couldn't say that. I really didn't understand what she meant and was 100% convinced that I would not regain it.
Then, I had a really really difficult year, but was still not interested in overeating. Until one day when I had a really difficult piece of news. I remember this as if it was yesterday, I went to McDonald's and, insted of getting the coffee that I went for, I also bought a muffin, entirely out of anger.
I know this may seem a small act, but for me, now on CD second time round, this is the first time that I have realised it was a huge turning point for me.
Anyway, I put on approximately 3.5stone and then decided to start CD after seeing some awful photographs. I really didn't want to do it though and was in a foul 'it's not fair' mood for a good week or so. It's now week 5 and I'm finally back in the routine. I realise that I felt guilty about losing weight in a seemingly easy way before and that I was feeling far too vulnerable to stay thin (I always feel 'better' bigger in terms of people will stay away and I can't get hurt).
I guess what I'm trying to say is that it seems a lot more emotional this time round and that I have learnt so much more about myself. I feel much more prepared and more proud as it hasn't been as easy. I still have approx 1.5 stone to lose but am already savouring it more. I know that the longer I can avoid eating in response to any emotion, the less likely that I will do it.
Sorry for wittering on, just wanted to say that hopefully there are benefits to 2nd time round and people shouldn't see it as a failure, only a challenge from which they become stronger.
Love Maxie xx
Hi,
I'm not sure where to post this, so anyone feel free to move if if they see fit.
Anyway, just thought I'd write some ramblings, about the good things about a VLCD second time round.
By June last year I'd lost 6 stone on a combination of LL/CD. I remember telling my counsellor that I'd never be fat again, and she told me that I couldn't say that. I really didn't understand what she meant and was 100% convinced that I would not regain it.
Then, I had a really really difficult year, but was still not interested in overeating. Until one day when I had a really difficult piece of news. I remember this as if it was yesterday, I went to McDonald's and, insted of getting the coffee that I went for, I also bought a muffin, entirely out of anger.
I know this may seem a small act, but for me, now on CD second time round, this is the first time that I have realised it was a huge turning point for me.
Anyway, I put on approximately 3.5stone and then decided to start CD after seeing some awful photographs. I really didn't want to do it though and was in a foul 'it's not fair' mood for a good week or so. It's now week 5 and I'm finally back in the routine. I realise that I felt guilty about losing weight in a seemingly easy way before and that I was feeling far too vulnerable to stay thin (I always feel 'better' bigger in terms of people will stay away and I can't get hurt).
I guess what I'm trying to say is that it seems a lot more emotional this time round and that I have learnt so much more about myself. I feel much more prepared and more proud as it hasn't been as easy. I still have approx 1.5 stone to lose but am already savouring it more. I know that the longer I can avoid eating in response to any emotion, the less likely that I will do it.
Sorry for wittering on, just wanted to say that hopefully there are benefits to 2nd time round and people shouldn't see it as a failure, only a challenge from which they become stronger.
Love Maxie xx
