I can't stop bluddy crying again.
I feel such a failure, I battled so hard to get off my anti depressants last year, and in the last 3 weeks I feel like I've gone back to square one
Tomorrow I fear I'm going to have to ask to be put back on the tablets.
I wonder how much of this is because I've never dealt with my food issues, and since I've been on LL I'm having to abstain so have left myself open to forcing myself to address things?
I feel like such a cow, I must be effecting how my boyfriend feels about eating in front of me.
I can't get into the mindset of doing this diet for myself - that probably sounds really bizarre.
the only reason I went along to the session was to keep my mum happy. 3 of her colleagues had done really well on the diet and she was desperate for me to do it.
I can't get to the bottom of how I can so desperately want to be thin, but not want to be doing this for myself (if that makes any sense?)
I'm so unhappy, and I have no reason to be. I cry at the slightest thing and it's unnerving me.
I'm sorry for blurting all of this out. I need to make sense of things but feel like I'm just making everything so much worse
Kitty xxx
I feel such a failure, I battled so hard to get off my anti depressants last year, and in the last 3 weeks I feel like I've gone back to square one
Tomorrow I fear I'm going to have to ask to be put back on the tablets.
I wonder how much of this is because I've never dealt with my food issues, and since I've been on LL I'm having to abstain so have left myself open to forcing myself to address things?
I feel like such a cow, I must be effecting how my boyfriend feels about eating in front of me.
I can't get into the mindset of doing this diet for myself - that probably sounds really bizarre.
the only reason I went along to the session was to keep my mum happy. 3 of her colleagues had done really well on the diet and she was desperate for me to do it.
I can't get to the bottom of how I can so desperately want to be thin, but not want to be doing this for myself (if that makes any sense?)
I'm so unhappy, and I have no reason to be. I cry at the slightest thing and it's unnerving me.
I'm sorry for blurting all of this out. I need to make sense of things but feel like I'm just making everything so much worse
Kitty xxx