ladylite
Gold Member
Well I havnt hit the floor yet and hoping that befoe I hit the ground those old wings will start flappy hard again and get me back up there with my halo.
I will cut and paste what I put in my blog. Any comments or tips would be grately appreciatex. It is nice to be in a place where everyone isnt perfect for a while "if you know what I mean". You feel you dont wanna keep bringing too much gloom to your happy LL thread. Well here goes.
Well here we are done my 100 days and lost 3st 3lbs. Look and feel amazing to what I did b4 I started, but in reality I still have 5 stone to lose to get to a good BMI.
So what the bloody hell am I doing. Why can I not finish one thing in my life. Now I am mucking around and yesterday did the biggest sabotage ever, its like deliberate.
Do I want to be slim, perhaps I dont. But I do, so what is the big voice in my head that is stopping me. I need to get in touch with this voice, but I cant seem reach it. I can see it, I can hear it and sometimes I feel like I can touch it. But for the life of my I cannot get it to listen. It can be very arrogant, even deceitful and it takes over me.
Perhaps I have got to try and work with it and not against it. Come to terms with it. It is my addiction and I need to treat it with respect, listen to it, try and work with it and not against it all the time. Perhaps I am not listening to IT.
I just dont know. I only seem to write a blog when things are going wrong. Perhaps I should write things down when the are going right.
Right lets do this 8 hours by 8hours. I say this as I can be good until the evening and then the old voice kicks in. So for the first 8 hours I will be brilliant, I know I can do that bit it is easy. Its the 2nd 8 hours when everything starts.
I will right a note on the calendar to tell Me to beware as the old demon voice will be calling me and I need to talk to it and not work against it. Try and find out what it is trying to tell me.
I CAN DO THIS. I AM GONNA DO THIS. I BLOODY MEAN IT. I WILL NOT GIVE IN.
So at 4ish I will re visit my blog and I will write down what I am feeling. Before I do any cheating, sabotaging or whatever you wanna call it, I am going to write on here why, what it will feel like during, how long will that feeling last and what will I feel like after.
Cause bloody hell, I feel like **** now after yesterday, tearful etc etc.
Now come positvie thinking cap on.
I AM GONNA DO THIS and the next 8 hours will be easy and I am coming on here and writing down why before anything illegal goes into my mouth.
I will cut and paste what I put in my blog. Any comments or tips would be grately appreciatex. It is nice to be in a place where everyone isnt perfect for a while "if you know what I mean". You feel you dont wanna keep bringing too much gloom to your happy LL thread. Well here goes.
Well here we are done my 100 days and lost 3st 3lbs. Look and feel amazing to what I did b4 I started, but in reality I still have 5 stone to lose to get to a good BMI.
So what the bloody hell am I doing. Why can I not finish one thing in my life. Now I am mucking around and yesterday did the biggest sabotage ever, its like deliberate.
Do I want to be slim, perhaps I dont. But I do, so what is the big voice in my head that is stopping me. I need to get in touch with this voice, but I cant seem reach it. I can see it, I can hear it and sometimes I feel like I can touch it. But for the life of my I cannot get it to listen. It can be very arrogant, even deceitful and it takes over me.
Perhaps I have got to try and work with it and not against it. Come to terms with it. It is my addiction and I need to treat it with respect, listen to it, try and work with it and not against it all the time. Perhaps I am not listening to IT.
I just dont know. I only seem to write a blog when things are going wrong. Perhaps I should write things down when the are going right.
Right lets do this 8 hours by 8hours. I say this as I can be good until the evening and then the old voice kicks in. So for the first 8 hours I will be brilliant, I know I can do that bit it is easy. Its the 2nd 8 hours when everything starts.
I will right a note on the calendar to tell Me to beware as the old demon voice will be calling me and I need to talk to it and not work against it. Try and find out what it is trying to tell me.
I CAN DO THIS. I AM GONNA DO THIS. I BLOODY MEAN IT. I WILL NOT GIVE IN.
So at 4ish I will re visit my blog and I will write down what I am feeling. Before I do any cheating, sabotaging or whatever you wanna call it, I am going to write on here why, what it will feel like during, how long will that feeling last and what will I feel like after.
Cause bloody hell, I feel like **** now after yesterday, tearful etc etc.
Now come positvie thinking cap on.
I AM GONNA DO THIS and the next 8 hours will be easy and I am coming on here and writing down why before anything illegal goes into my mouth.
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