Newbie (again!)

So I find myself at my heaviest I have ever been in my life. Not only do I look and feel hideous, the extra strain from the weight is causing extra pressure on my already permanently painful knee, is affecting my relationship with my partner (if you catch my drift ?) and I have now learnt that when I'm asleep I not only snore (which I never did before I got fat), but I make 'noises that I have no idea how you would make' according to him indoors. He also says that when I sleep on my back I sound like I'm choking!
So I find myself more separate than ever to lose weight, and as fast and healthily as I can. This brings me back to slimming world.

I have had good results in the past, albeit when I was about 3 stone lighter!

I know I can blame family bereavement (loss of three family member is 4 months - one of whom was my mother in law who I was very close to and miss each and every day ?) and 'it piled on after I stopped doing Cambridge' (which I only did for 2 weeks cos it's ridiculous!!) but the fact is, I like food, the wrong food!!!!

I also know, I need all the help I can get!!

I've never wanted to lose weight more, but my will power is shocking! I don't have many friends (well any actually!) who I can turn to who will understand, I hardly see my family and (apart from the snoring) my partner says I'm fine as I am (which doesn't really help!).

I have a few staple recipes that I have used a lot when doing SW before, but i am in need of inspiration and support more than ever before.
I eat mainly vegetarian, but that's mainly due to the cost if meat these days!

Any help, recipes, inspiration, friendships (not in a weird loner desperate way, purely minimins friendship ?) that anyone can offer would be amazing.
I will of course be checking out the recipe section as well.

Hope to hear from someone maybe in the same boat as me (i.e. No will power/support and/or people who are unable to exercise for whatever reason) soon.

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Hi I think maybe start with a green week with 2 x healthy extras & really fill up on free foods be 100% on plan use your syns & you will get a good loss which will spur you on to continue.I started snoring when I got to a certain weight & my husband ribbed me about it so much I started sleeping downstairs glad to say my snoring has stopped already with a relatively small loss.Sorry to hear about the loss of your family members it must be very hard to concentrate on losing weight right now,goodluck with your journey & here if you want any help or just to chat x

Thanks tamkat.
I will be starting on Wednesday I think because if I start cheating doing it at home, there is a group near me on a Wednesday night so my weigh in days can stay the same.
Lost the family (mother in law and 2 aunties (sisters) in September, November and December 2012 so been 18 months now. Time to stop comfort eating and try to reverse the damage. When we got home from the hospital when my mother in law died, my hubby was obviously devastated as it was completely unexpected, and couldn't eat a thing, me on the other hand, I was also devastated as she was my mother in law for 11 years, and was more like a proper mum to me, but I polished off a full box of Cadburys chocolate fingers in about 2 hours!!! Had to mention to him that when I'm sad I eat so he didn't think I was being heartless!!. ?
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we all eat for lots of different reasons/emotions ive got to the root of my binge eating which has been a massive help to me in the last few weeks,not saying im cured but im def more mindful & try not to use food as a comfort anymore.I weigh wed mornings at home still cant face a group but maybe when it gets too tough going it alone I will join one x