daisydaisy
Full Member
Hi everyone,
It feels like I've been trying to lose weight forever! In fact I realised the other day it's exactly 20 years since I joined my very first slimming club. And I'm 37 (next week!), so you can see I started young...
Anyway, I finally had a breakthrough when I lost my excess 4 stone with LighterLife two years ago. Sadly my new found confidence and excitement at finally being slim wasn't to last long, and although I maintained well at first by eating healthily, my old ways slowly crept back (and with them 2.5 stone - eek!) and for the last year I've 'faffed' with CD so many times I've lost count, always sticking with it for a few weeks then having an "oh sod it!" moment and hitting the chocolate.
So... today is my final restart. Really! I don't want to end up back where I was before LL; I want to wear those lovely size 10/12 clothes I treated myself to after I'd done so well and felt so good about myself. At the moment they're gathering dust in the wardrobe. I got rid of all my 'big' clothes from before so I've had to keep buying bits and bobs in larger and larger sizes to keep me going - how depressing! And they're all black! But now even they are bursting at the seams. Oh to sit down and feel comfortable in my trousers again... that would be bliss!
It's amazing how being overweight (or obese as I am again now) affects my confidence and happiness levels. I'm pretty quiet anyway, but in my own way I'm a different person when I'm slim; I can deal with what life throws at me. When I'm big I feel invisible and my self esteem plummets.
Anyway, I thought I'd start a little diary to help keep me on the straight and narrow, and I'll try to post something most days about my progress. And if anyone's reading, feel free to join in, I'd love to hear from you and share some mutual encouragement!
Here goes with Day 1 on CD SS - and I'm doing OK!
It feels like I've been trying to lose weight forever! In fact I realised the other day it's exactly 20 years since I joined my very first slimming club. And I'm 37 (next week!), so you can see I started young...
Anyway, I finally had a breakthrough when I lost my excess 4 stone with LighterLife two years ago. Sadly my new found confidence and excitement at finally being slim wasn't to last long, and although I maintained well at first by eating healthily, my old ways slowly crept back (and with them 2.5 stone - eek!) and for the last year I've 'faffed' with CD so many times I've lost count, always sticking with it for a few weeks then having an "oh sod it!" moment and hitting the chocolate.
So... today is my final restart. Really! I don't want to end up back where I was before LL; I want to wear those lovely size 10/12 clothes I treated myself to after I'd done so well and felt so good about myself. At the moment they're gathering dust in the wardrobe. I got rid of all my 'big' clothes from before so I've had to keep buying bits and bobs in larger and larger sizes to keep me going - how depressing! And they're all black! But now even they are bursting at the seams. Oh to sit down and feel comfortable in my trousers again... that would be bliss!
It's amazing how being overweight (or obese as I am again now) affects my confidence and happiness levels. I'm pretty quiet anyway, but in my own way I'm a different person when I'm slim; I can deal with what life throws at me. When I'm big I feel invisible and my self esteem plummets.
Anyway, I thought I'd start a little diary to help keep me on the straight and narrow, and I'll try to post something most days about my progress. And if anyone's reading, feel free to join in, I'd love to hear from you and share some mutual encouragement!
Here goes with Day 1 on CD SS - and I'm doing OK!