gone off the rails!

cc28

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I could feel it coming, I went off the rails. I was not really worried about missing the meal but was sorely tempted by all the sweet treats. I have been trying really hard to stay on track and to lose this last stone but I am finding it too difficult to NoT stray so I have decided to start management early.

Once I have that settled then maybe I will do a short stint on abstinence again- maybe for about a month. I think this is possible to do as a refresher.

For me the management was the most imnportant thing to me as I have never learned to eat properly and have simply comort ate since the age of 14. And then when I got big I went on and off diets for years. So I have lost lots of weight in the past before but once there have always just gone back to my old habits and put it on again.

I am a little disappointed that perhaps I have not learned or put my new knowledge to use and that maybe I am quitting. But in a way I am being an "adult" in that I am realising that I used food in the past to cope and that is no longer going to work. And also that I am not giving up but am going on to learn and put new food habits to use.

At the moment there is a lot going on in my life- never mind the festive season everything is up in the air! So I do not have much time for myself and my self directed learning. I suppose I should try harder to carve out time for me but I think I would prefer to move house, get kiddies settled and deal with my son health issues, my career woes first while trying to maintain my new weight and come back to the weight loss when I have more time.

I hope I am making the right decision, I think I am.

I am going to restart foodpacks today and then start management on Friday.
 
Try not to beat yourself up about it. But I would recommend that you discuss this with your LLC she/he may be able to help.

Remember to put yourself first though, you need to look after yourself. - Good luck.
 
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