Now i am in charge........

I think i finally get the clue. All those years (i'm 40 now) that are behind me i used to abuse my body. I ate everything i liked without thinking about the trash i put in my mouth. I was a binge eater and i think i had days i was consuming thousands of calories. The scale moved upwards and upwards and the more i weight, the more depressed i got and the more i ate and so on. I also ate secretly so no one would notice (i thought). When i binged at home i used to hide the packages of the food i ate so my HB wouldn't find it but he knew all the time.
We have a daughter (7 years old) and one day she found some of those packages and she confronted me with it. "Mam, why do you always eat in secret" she asked me and that question made me feel so sad. I always tell here she has to eat properly but behind her back i did the opposite. I was in therapy and i'll spare you the details but i couldn't get control of the food.
Since i started CD i finally get the clue. My body is a holy temple, i only have one and i better take good care of it.
Apart of that, loosing weight makes me look much prettier and i enjoy the compliments which are coming my way so now and then. I'm changing and my HB and daughter see that too and they encourage me so well!

I'm so very happy that food doens't rule my life anymore.....now i'm in charge and o boy, that feels damn good.

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botozi

Hey Hun, gosh you story sounds so similar to mine! I'm so pleased you have reach this point where you control your body - not the otherway around - you must feel very liberated. Good luck with the remainder of your journey - something tells me you will do just fine Vxx

Yes when you eat and eat really you think its the answer but deep down its not and i guess its just finding the strong you , us to find it ... its there somewhere in us all .
Well done for finding yours !

You sound very positive!Keep it up

Congratulations! What a wonderfully inspiring story. Keep it up

That's such a great way of thinking about it - respecting your body and such - I'm gonna try and adopt that point of view. I will beat my addiction to junk food! *looks determined*

It's hard some times to wonder why u do do it. Remember... you will always been a food addict we all will.... Just a thin one. Did you work out why you use to bindge and the triggers? Good luck with your journey you will be there PRONTO!

botozi said:

The scale moved upwards and upwards and the more i weight, the more depressed i got and the more i ate and so on. I also ate secretly so no one would notice (i thought). When i binged at home i used to hide the packages of the food i ate so my HB wouldn't find it but he knew all the time.

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Hmmmmmmmmmmmm

It wasn't just me then?

Botzoi i think we share the same brain lol this is exactly how i feel and who do we do it to ourselves it's pure lunacy