Porgeous
Chilling
Been feeling kind of odd recently, not sure when it started or what it is really or even how to explain it but will have a go. There is part of me that believes the only emotion I should be feeling is one of complete joy and happiness at what I have achieved and, please don't get me wrong, this emotion is certainly there and I am generally extremely happy. However, I have noticed lurking under the surface feelings of uncertainty and almost bewilderment which have made me quite over emotional and tearful. I am not sure what is driving these feelings or whether it is totally self indulgent. I think there is a certain element of not really being sure of who I am which sounds ridiculous because I am the same person I have always been, but silly things like walking into a clothes shop and not even knowing where to begin leaving me feeling a little lost. All the way through my journey I have been 100% focused "eyes down on the prize" as Icemoose would say, I don't think I have ever really stopped to acknowledge what has happened or how far I've come. Maybe there is a realisation that a life long dream could actually become a reality and a sense of not really knowing how to feel about it. Not sure I am making any sense and can't help feel guilty about having what could be perceived as negative emotions. Sorry for rambling and for sounding a bit over analytical - has anybody else experienced mixed emotions during their journeys?
With love
Georgie
xx
With love
Georgie
xx