Arggggg, sooo much messing

Hmmmm, bleeeeeep, gave into pizza tonight.... and chocolate..... arggggggggg. Finding it really hard to stay / get focused at the moment. I'm struggling to identify exactly why I'm finding it hard at the moment / why I'm letting myself eat other things much more easily. I know I want to get to a healthy weight... but I think I'm also a bit nervous at the increase in criticism; I'm already getting a few voices telling me I've lost enough; and I suspect they will get louder /more frequent. However, I'm not sure why I'm letting that get to me at the moment, or if I'm just using that as an excuse. I seem to find it a lot easier to let myself jump off the diet at the moment; which really isn't helping me get anywhere. I think I've been +/- 5lbs of this weight for about 4 months now. I feel like I need to either decide to move to maintenance, or get really serious and actually commit to TS (more than for just 3/4/5 days at a time). Hmmm, I think it's time for an early night for me, and a lot of thinking, to decide what I'm really doing, as this messing about is starting to get a little silly! (At least I'm not going up majorly on the weight, but I don't think it's a great place for me to be at the moment.)
Argggg, wish the magic fairies would zap this last 2 stone!

I know exactly what you mean - this happens to me every time I hit the weight that I'm currently at (and I notice that we're the same height/weight, so I do actually know your pain.) I think I start relaxing on myself because what I see in the mirror every day no longer mortally offends me.

Don't listen to the voices - lose the next two stone too, and stop when you think you need to stop. As I said, we have the same stats, and I know I want to lose at least another two stone; the saddlebags and back fat needs to go! Yeah, so I now look okay in a pair of jeans. I want to look great in a pair of jeans though!

I've also not been behaving well for the last 3 days - I've had my AAM week, but then ran into this beautiful weekend which has involved friends, outdoors and barbeques. I didn't go OTT, I'm still in ketosis, and I kept a very close eye on my calorie intake. I actually decided that I was going to allow myself to do this because I didn't have much of a summer thanks to work, so this was my last chance. I felt I deserved it!

But now it's Monday, and it's back to 100% - no arguments, no negotiations.

Your current plan of 11:11 by 11/11/11 has really struck a chord with me, and I'd love to try to achieve that too. Looking at the calendar it's definitely doable (though I should probably start exercising just to help myself along!) so what you waiting for, girl? New month, new start, (even more of a) new you! Bring on the elevens...

Maybe nows the time to try some real life maintenance for a bit, with whatever your plan of choice is (like calorie counting or general healthy eating) and you'll soon get sick of seeing the slowdown on the scales. Thats what gave me the kick to come back x

Are you exercising at all Cybil? I find when I'm active I'm less likely to eat junk food because my body needs to be fed well. Maybe try a different workout DVD or something to make you feel good physically (not food of course!). Endorphins are amazing!

Also, you've done really well so far...the smaller you get the smaller the numbers will be every week.

You'll make the right decision for you in the end.

Thank you for your replies

Yes, I've been exercising quite a lot (recently I was training for a 45 mile cycle ride that I did 2 weeks ago). I think I need to work out what my focus is going forward; perhaps decide another cycle challenge. A new workout dvd sounds a good idea, just to get a bit of variety in.

Hmmmmm, I think I need to be serious with myself and properly work out why I want to lose this next 2 stone, and what it will really mean to me to achieve it - at the moment it's too easy to decide that I've done enough, and not knuckle down to finish the job!

I do the same everytime I get to 11 and a half stone (which is around the same bmi as your current weight and height) I think for me personally its because Im no longer the huge fat person... Im a size 14, people keep saying how thin Ive got although Im still over weight, where so many women are around a size 14, its seen as normal but its still over weight... I desperately want to get below 10 stone 4 so Im healthy weight but I keep slipping up and falling off the wagon and gaining and losing the same pounds... if you were really happy staying the weight you are now you wouldnt keep trying to come back to lose more.

Get your head back in the zone and you can do it!

Good for you Cybill! We all have our walls to climb. You've done amazingly well so far. The next 2 stone may be harder mentally for a little while until your head and body are in the sync. But once you're there, the weight will come off!

Exercise DVDs are also great. Zumba is my current fav!

I know exactly what you mean. I'm really struggling with this last stone or so. Just can't seem to get my head back in the same place that got the other 3 stone off. Really wanted it off by end of november, which I know is achievable but just can't seem to focus. even having a serious work with myself hasn't worked yet. Am seriously gonna have to sort meself out sooner rather than later. Good luck hunni, you've done fantastically well so far. You'll find the will inside you somewhere! Xx

It must be a common experience; I am struggling too - about 10 pounds more off and I will be happy. But my resolve is not as strong as it was. - I have stuck to it but I am bored, and desperate to eat relatively normally. Shakes for an evening meal for months is not very sociable and I miss chewing and the crunch of real food.
Exante is great, it has worked and I am delighted with the results but for some reason this last push is very very hard.

GSQ

Thank you all for your encouragement and honesty. It's reassuring to feel that I'm not alone in these feelings at this point in the journey. I went out for a long walk with a friend this morning and we talked it all through. I have decided that I do definitely want to get all the way to a healthy weight, so I'm definitely carrying on with losing weight. I've also decided that I do want to continue with Exante to lose this next 2 stone. I'm going to have a dinner tonight with my favourite things (roast chicken!) and then tomorrow morning, I am back on packs with a vengeance. If I follow this through I can be at my healthy weight by Christmas, and start 2012 as a healthy person without weight loss featuring in any resolution at new year

When I got home today I've also had a lovely email from Exante to say that I will feature as a star story on their website next month, which I am so excited / shocked / suprised at