Baring my soul

Bethuk1

Full Member
I started CD in Jan 2011 and quickly lost 50lbs over the space of a few weeks. However, over the forthcoming weeks I started skipping shakes in exchange for snacks and slowly giving into the temptations I had been so strong to resist in the beginning.

Skipping shakes resulted in quite an impressive stockpile of unused packets which I have threatened to start using about a 1000000 times in the last few weeks. I can drink shake 1 and 2 and then come dinner time I become a massive failure. I have absolute zero willpower to even last 1 single day of 100% SS.

Because of my stockpile and constant promise of re-starting CD almost everyday has become my "one last blowout" day resulting in a 3 month binge resulting in about a stone of new belly :sigh:

What is wrong with my brain? Why do I fear that I must have one last (insert any highly fattening food) incase it goes out of production while I'm on CD!!

Does anyone ever get that same determination a CD virgin has again? :cry::cry:
 
I'm doing the diet again but as last time, I'm finding i'm stockpiling! I've got loads of wine, varieties of coke etc, gin, vodka, big bag crisps, biscuits but i've not got them in the kitchen, they are in shopping bags in my room! I'm not hiding them but seem to be getting ready for party season? I also find that the more focussed on CD I am, the better I am at preparing meals - roast dinners, homemade soup, puddings. Bit odd but somehow it works for me.
Only thing is when I have a fall from the wagon, i'll come crashing down from a great height.
I do think that you have to get your head in the right place before setting off on SS, you can't do it half hearted. If you've had the packs for a while they may be getting close to use by dates. Personally, that would probably help me as they are not cheap and it would be such a waste to throw them in the bin.
Come on here for lots of support, everyone is very friendly and if your fingers are busy typing, the time will pass........
Good luck on your journey
Mx
 
Hi

Oh you are soo not alone in what I frequently referred to as "self sabotage"........I had 6 weeks of product in my cupboards that I was always going to start next Monday or after I had tried WW, SW and more recently Dukan. As well as starting CD and failing by dinner.
I do agree with Mollydog and it is definately all about positive mental attitude and being in the zone!
You have done so well with your weightloss this far, good luck and we are all here to support each other.
Dolly
 
Just the same apart from Ive been doing the start today thing over and over for a couple of years something just clicked for me and I feel the same now as I did the first time, why dont you try starting on a higher plan first?If it were me I would work out what Im going to have first,left with a choice i go completely out of control.I spent a day or so looking through the inspiration photos and reading the 50+ reasons to lose weight it helped me.Good luck xx
 
Don't torture yourself missus! I have found the 810 plan is fantastic for helping keep me on track (well apart from a wee 2 day blip!)

The thought of food helps get me thru the day!

Try it, see how you get on. What you gotta lose? ;)

Linzois
xxx
 
oh I had a period like this a couple of weeks ago, just messing every evening while being good during the day. I got scared I would fall into an unhealthy pattern, that I"ve done so many times before (although not on CD). It really helped writting about underlying factors in my diary, it allowed me get through it and better understand what was going on. Then I needed a kick start, as weight was not it anymore (I'm noth thin but I feel like it ;)). Exercise has been the key to my restart. It gave me my motivation back. Hope you'll find your way. I too have 3 months worth of shakes at home, since my CDC has moved. And I don't want to mess up with them;)
 
Reassuring to see I'm not the only one who has felt like this.
I was exactly the same - I'd cave at dinner time. In the end I had to throw out loads of Lipotrim because they had expired - may as well have thrown the money straight in the bin. And yet, here I am again a year later and a stone heavier than I was when I began Lipotrim. That's been the motivator for me - if I don't do something now, the weight will continue to creep up and up.

Best of luck with it - I'm a newbie to this site and have found it to be really encouraging. Just reading everyone else's stories and goals keeps me on track.
 
Thanks ladies for your fab support! I miss that me who felt so superior because she could turn down all the office treats and mother in law cake sabotages! :( she needs to get back here now!

I have the office Christmas party to aim for so I really should pull my socks up or I'll be needing 3 girdles to fit in my dress :p

Thanks again...you rock! :D x
 
You can do it gorgeous!!!!!! X
 
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