really mucked up :(

shelleyzeus

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Really enoyed with myself this weekend, 1st i went out on friday nite and had loads of vodka and full fat lemonade and had burger and chips after it and then saturday i had a turkey carvery and that nite i had chicken fried rice with chips and to BIG glasses of vodka:sigh:
Then today i had a large quarter pounder with cheese meal with choc milkshake and a large bag of m&ms and 35cl of vodka with diet lemonade:mad:.
just toltaly slipt up and feel really discusted with myself:mad:.
I hate been fat and been so uncomfatable but my eating is out of controle, and so is my beer.
Ive had such a hard 4yr and all ive done is pound weight on throught drinking and late night eating and i hate myself about it.
I feel such a failier, i reaaly want to be thin or at least healthy again as my dad had a masive heart attack at 38yrs old and nearly died so i know i need to be fit to beat heart failier.
At the moment theres talk about a heart transplant for him but he might not be able to have it due to hes diabeties and animia and unsteadiness so i might loose him:mad:.
Ive just watched my grandad die of throat cancer which he beat 3 times but in the end he lost hes fight and my mum left my dad 3 yr ago and ive never come to terms with it:mad:.
Just hope i wake up tmoz with alot of willpower and go for it again for my 2 children aged 6 and 5 month... :mad::mad::mad:
 
Bless you! you have had it rough, but you now need to be focused again, so you had a slip up but from tomorrow you start again and forget what happened at the weekend. You can't change whats happened, but you can control whats going to happen.
You can do it.
 
Really enoyed with myself this weekend, 1st i went out on friday nite and had loads of vodka and full fat lemonade and had burger and chips after it and then saturday i had a turkey carvery and that nite i had chicken fried rice with chips and to BIG glasses of vodka:sigh:
Then today i had a large quarter pounder with cheese meal with choc milkshake and a large bag of m&ms and 35cl of vodka with diet lemonade:mad:.
just toltaly slipt up and feel really discusted with myself:mad:.
I hate been fat and been so uncomfatable but my eating is out of controle, and so is my beer.
Ive had such a hard 4yr and all ive done is pound weight on throught drinking and late night eating and i hate myself about it.
I feel such a failier, i reaaly want to be thin or at least healthy again as my dad had a masive heart attack at 38yrs old and nearly died so i know i need to be fit to beat heart failier.
At the moment theres talk about a heart transplant for him but he might not be able to have it due to hes diabeties and animia and unsteadiness so i might loose him:mad:.
Ive just watched my grandad die of throat cancer which he beat 3 times but in the end he lost hes fight and my mum left my dad 3 yr ago and ive never come to terms with it:mad:.
Just hope i wake up tmoz with alot of willpower and go for it again for my 2 children aged 6 and 5 month... :mad::mad::mad:

don't be beating yourself up, with the experiences you have had during your life, you should sit back and realise that this is not a rehearsal and life is for living. you have two children who will love you unconditionally. you've had a bit of a bad weekend diet wise, but sure who doesn't do that, i for one, am a complete disaster at the weekends too, it's a hard struggle and when you see how many people are on this forum you realise that we are all fighting the same battle. hope you waken up in the morning feeling a bit better and stop being so hard on yourself hun, you can do it. xo:cross:
 
You have been through alot perhaps it's an emotional eating issue I have suffered from this and when I'm stressed/upset I eat. I would eat junk and foods I knew I shouldnt. It filled the hole and I would repeat it.

If that is the case you need to pick yourself up and when your feeling down and wanting to eat focus your attention on something else. I know it is hard as I still struggle with emotional eating myself :(

Good luck Hun! X
 
Hey lovely,

I can't really add anything to what has already been said, but just because you have a few bad days (eating wise that is), it doesn't mean you have failed and you can only do so much damage in that short amount of time.

Just remember, we all care for each other on here and we all have the same goal - and we will all do it together. We can jump the obstacles together and feel better for it afterwards. You have done so well already, so imagine how much better it gets....

Come back for a rant anytime and you will always find friends!!

Much love xxx
 
Thankyou everyone :) I woke up feeling abit better but ive had to starve myself this morning due to me having an ultra sound coz im stomach still hurts 5mth after labour.
On my way home i was starving and reallt felt like going to mcdonalds but i didnt and i went to asda and got some weight watchers bread and some low fat cheese triangles and made a sandwich instead :) Just hope i can pick myself up now and carry on with it.
I really appreciate your comments thankyou :) :) :)
 
Just forget about it and start again normally. If you try to compensate for it you'll end up making yourself more hungry and fall back off the wagon again.

Good luck!!
 
I think the first few words says it all.... You really enjoyed yourself :). We've all been there (I'm there all the time!) so just put it behind you and start a fresh :)
 
Just wanted to say that I did the same this week had 2 days where I was out of control....wasn't sure I could just pick myself up and carry on but I have and feel much better now.....you can do it. I'm sorry you have had a tough time. I have a 2 yr old and a 5 month old and it is tough....don't be too hard on yourself.
 
Just want to say i'm new on here but i know how it feels to comfort eat my dad died last month after being ill for just under a year and have turned to food to comfort me not that its helped at all just made me worse. I really need to change so i'm sure with all the support on here you will be able to do that. Today is a new day xx xx
 
Shelley,

I have gone of track totally this weekend :( its ALWAYS the weekends that get me.
Thursday- meal with friends, scampi, chips and bottle of wine
Friday- Take away kebab and LOTS of alcohol
Saturday- blackpool pleasure beach and a burger king
Sunday- Kids party, lots of party food and a meal out in the evening, chicken with bacon, cheese bbq sauce chips, mayo :(

Propper let myself down too, i split with my boyfriend on monday and this weekend i just wanted to go out and have fun and that ALWAYS messes up my loss lol. My WI is tomorrow so il have to brave it and propper knuckle down next week i think.

We all have weeks like this i think, try not to beat yourself up and start again hun :) just put it behind you and start again hun. xx
 
Aww don't worry about it, start a fresh and positive, we all have our bad diet days, personally I just had a bad month :/ but best thing is to be positive and tackle a new diet day!
 
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