Hi everyone,
i decided to keep a diary of my weight loss so here's my story.
i have always loved food, i am the sort of person that lives to eat not eats to live. I remember always being a little chubbier than the other kids in school but didn't let it bother me and i was lucky enough not to have been bullied about my weight throughout school. When i was in senior school i remember being a size 14 but as soon as i left and started working in an office sat at a desk from 9-5 and then i learnt to drive it was all down hill from there!
I am now 26 years old and weigh 21stone and this is the underlying problem of my depression. If i am being honest with myself i have tried Weight Watchers and Slimming World in the past but never stuck with it long enough to achieve real results. The most weight i ever lost was 2stone but then i met my current partner and soon become complacent again and all the weight plus more crept back on so here i am.
After going through a really bad place in my life back in march where i became so depressed i felt like i didnt want to live anymore i decided i had to do something about my weight so I joined Slimming World again at the end of March. Things were going great, i quickly lost 1 stone and I joined the gym but then in April we had all the bank holidays which came with a lot of family events and soclialising so my routine was interrupted and since then I haven unable to find the willpower to get back on track with the diet and the gym!
When I am dieting I stress myself out so much, I am constantly thinking about food and what I should and shouldn't be eating so since coming off track if I am being honest I have enjoyed eating what I want when I want.
Going back to Slimming World just seems so daunting and I feel like such a failure again, I know losing weight would dramatically change my life but yet I still cant seem to get my ass in gear and do it!
I just want to be happy and enjoy my life and i wish food would stop ruling my life like it has for the last ten years.
Sorry for the long entry just needed to get some things off my chest
i decided to keep a diary of my weight loss so here's my story.
i have always loved food, i am the sort of person that lives to eat not eats to live. I remember always being a little chubbier than the other kids in school but didn't let it bother me and i was lucky enough not to have been bullied about my weight throughout school. When i was in senior school i remember being a size 14 but as soon as i left and started working in an office sat at a desk from 9-5 and then i learnt to drive it was all down hill from there!
I am now 26 years old and weigh 21stone and this is the underlying problem of my depression. If i am being honest with myself i have tried Weight Watchers and Slimming World in the past but never stuck with it long enough to achieve real results. The most weight i ever lost was 2stone but then i met my current partner and soon become complacent again and all the weight plus more crept back on so here i am.
After going through a really bad place in my life back in march where i became so depressed i felt like i didnt want to live anymore i decided i had to do something about my weight so I joined Slimming World again at the end of March. Things were going great, i quickly lost 1 stone and I joined the gym but then in April we had all the bank holidays which came with a lot of family events and soclialising so my routine was interrupted and since then I haven unable to find the willpower to get back on track with the diet and the gym!
When I am dieting I stress myself out so much, I am constantly thinking about food and what I should and shouldn't be eating so since coming off track if I am being honest I have enjoyed eating what I want when I want.
Going back to Slimming World just seems so daunting and I feel like such a failure again, I know losing weight would dramatically change my life but yet I still cant seem to get my ass in gear and do it!
I just want to be happy and enjoy my life and i wish food would stop ruling my life like it has for the last ten years.
Sorry for the long entry just needed to get some things off my chest