strugglingtobeperfect
Full Member
I haven’t been online for a while.. ive been too ashamed and felt bad for letting my self and you guys down.. I felt like a big let down… L
I have a few issues going on with my “pending” marriage.. my in laws suddently don’t think im good enough for their son. Its all down to the Indian caste system. Its pretty pathetic reali.
Anyway I felt angry and empty. What did I do to combat those feelings? I ate.. and ate and ATE.! To be honest I didn’t have as much as I would have done before the diet. I felt fuller quicker and couldn’t bring myself to eat anymore. Its no excuse and nothing to be proud of though.
So I had a Sunday re-start.. and its going well again.. but I still feel awful for doing it in the first place. Its like I don’t deserve to lose weight and be happy.
Im not in the bestest of places at the moment.
I do want to lose weight and I do want to be happy. But im in 2 minds about everything.. I just feel as though im arguing with myself one minute im reali determined and the next someone has ground me down and I turn to food.
How can I help myself guys? I just need to make myself posative again!
I have a few issues going on with my “pending” marriage.. my in laws suddently don’t think im good enough for their son. Its all down to the Indian caste system. Its pretty pathetic reali.
Anyway I felt angry and empty. What did I do to combat those feelings? I ate.. and ate and ATE.! To be honest I didn’t have as much as I would have done before the diet. I felt fuller quicker and couldn’t bring myself to eat anymore. Its no excuse and nothing to be proud of though.
So I had a Sunday re-start.. and its going well again.. but I still feel awful for doing it in the first place. Its like I don’t deserve to lose weight and be happy.
Im not in the bestest of places at the moment.
I do want to lose weight and I do want to be happy. But im in 2 minds about everything.. I just feel as though im arguing with myself one minute im reali determined and the next someone has ground me down and I turn to food.
How can I help myself guys? I just need to make myself posative again!