charlie-farley
Member
Im 30 this year and i just cant spend my 30's hating myself like i have done in my 20's. I lost 5 stone two years ago and felt fantastic, but i have put 4 of it back on :ashamed0005: and im so cross with myself. I was on here late last year, full of it because i had started cambridge, but i soon fell off that wagon. What is wrong with me that i abuse myself like this? I am fat because i eat too much junk, drink too much wine and dont do any exercise......there ive said it now! I appreciate there are people out there who put weight on because of medication and illness etc but i do it to myself. Im flying to Canada 3 weeks today to see family i havent seen for 4 years. Im not excited like i should be because all i can think about is i wont fit in the plane seat and the belt wont do up around me and i'll have to ask for an extender and how mortifiying that will be for me. Then even if that goes ok the family will see me and think "god shes put weight on!!!" All the girls there are skinny model types and i will just feel like crap and be worrying my gorjuws hubby will be thinking he's ashamed of me.
Right, self pity over!!! Iam ordering my Exante packs today. I know it wont be easy, but i will do it. I know i'll cry and get frustrated when im down and hungry and missing wine and chocolate at the weekend, but it wont mean i'll stray off the Exante path. Then this time next year i will be healthier, happier, sexier and it will be soooo worth it!!!!! xoxoxox
Right, self pity over!!! Iam ordering my Exante packs today. I know it wont be easy, but i will do it. I know i'll cry and get frustrated when im down and hungry and missing wine and chocolate at the weekend, but it wont mean i'll stray off the Exante path. Then this time next year i will be healthier, happier, sexier and it will be soooo worth it!!!!! xoxoxox