New Target

fatpossum

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Hi Chaps,

I'm just back from 'a do' and taking a few minutes to unwind before I go to bed.

We had a nice time tonight and I was delighted to be there in my high heels (murder!!!) and size 12 'LBD' - looking good!!

BUT - I have reached the stage now where I want to "GO FURTHER"!! I watched all of the other women wearing a variety of very expensive evening gowns (lots of flesh on view that to my mind would have been better covered up - sniff!!) and I thought

"NYE is coming and if I can get myself in gear I can be here again in a little over 5 months time in the slinkiest, sexiest ballgown imaginable".

I have been this size for so long now (about 3/4 weeks!!) that I am starting to see myself as fat again :eek:. I am a size 10/12 - something I would have 'died' to be during the past 3/4 years but I am starting to feel FAT again!!

I no longer notice my bony shoulders and chest nor the fact that my hip bones have reappeared and see only the fact that my thighs could be slimmer and my tum less 'wobbley'. The 'excitement' of slipping into a size 10 pair of jeans has also abated and when I stand in front of the mirror I see only the imperfections.

I think that given my frame I could comfortably be a size 8.

So that is where I am 'going' - to 'Size-Eight-ville'.

Isn't it odd that no matter how much success we have there is always another aim/target?

Night night.
 
Good look in your quest! Size 8 eh? Wow, something I can only dream of at the moment. How do we learn to love ourselves, and be happy with our lot?
 
Just dont overdo it! You need to feel comfortable with who you are while also recognising that the society we live in is so airbushed and sizezeroey that we have to be carefu not to buy into that! Also a size 10/12 is by no means fat so you need to have a think about that thinking IYKWIM!! Well done on coming so far though! Are you doing ay excercise to tone the tummy etc BTW? I started yesterday....actually wasnt TOO bad!!
 
Hi ISOM,

The only thing that would sort out my tum is surgery!! But I wouldn't even begin to consider that - the very idea terrifies me and it really doesn't mean that much to me. So long as I can look good clothed I am okay. My husband is fine with how I look and has never made me feel bad about my wrinkley midrift!

I am exercising and have tried to keep it up throughout LL though my low energy levels meant that I wasn't able to do as much as I would have liked. I have been walking, walking, walking however and I really enjoy that.

I don't think that size 8 is too ambitious. I am very small boned (like my mother) - my ring size (even when I was 3 stones heavier) has always been really small as are my wrists and shoulders. I really do have excess fat on my thighs and tum and there is also some on my back so I shall set about shedding that.

I don't know if/when I will get to 'love' my body - I do like bits of it but is is a constant battle.

When I finish with CD I am thinking that I will manage long term/life long mainteance by way of JUDDD. I think that would suit my lifestyle and it appears to have an array of benefits in terms of maintaining overall good health.

It is funny though .... when I was FAT I thought that being thin would make everything seem different. But it doesn't. Don't get me wrong I am thrilled with the new me but it is so easy to get thrown off track and the slightest little slip up can lead to days of self castigation. If I even eat the slightest thing I shouldn't I can see the effects for two or three days afterwards (I think I have a wheat intolerance and I am sure that I have developed an allergy to alcohol). The only way to stay looking 'lean and mean' is to stick to packs and drink gallons of water. But if that is what it takes ............

I'm off to shop for dinner for my family now so I plan to walk to the supermarket and while I am there buy myself a good book or trashy magazine and then come home and get into my 'comfies' and have a nice glass of chilled sparkling water. I will be feeling much more positive tomorrow.

I start my CD packs on Tuesday next. I am told that the bars are gorgeous - I hope so. I ran out of LL bars a few days ago and really miss them. I tried the Atkins bars and they were sooooooooo awful.

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