Hi Chaps,
I'm just back from 'a do' and taking a few minutes to unwind before I go to bed.
We had a nice time tonight and I was delighted to be there in my high heels (murder!!!) and size 12 'LBD' - looking good!!
BUT - I have reached the stage now where I want to "GO FURTHER"!! I watched all of the other women wearing a variety of very expensive evening gowns (lots of flesh on view that to my mind would have been better covered up - sniff!!) and I thought
"NYE is coming and if I can get myself in gear I can be here again in a little over 5 months time in the slinkiest, sexiest ballgown imaginable".
I have been this size for so long now (about 3/4 weeks!!) that I am starting to see myself as fat again . I am a size 10/12 - something I would have 'died' to be during the past 3/4 years but I am starting to feel FAT again!!
I no longer notice my bony shoulders and chest nor the fact that my hip bones have reappeared and see only the fact that my thighs could be slimmer and my tum less 'wobbley'. The 'excitement' of slipping into a size 10 pair of jeans has also abated and when I stand in front of the mirror I see only the imperfections.
I think that given my frame I could comfortably be a size 8.
So that is where I am 'going' - to 'Size-Eight-ville'.
Isn't it odd that no matter how much success we have there is always another aim/target?
Night night.
I'm just back from 'a do' and taking a few minutes to unwind before I go to bed.
We had a nice time tonight and I was delighted to be there in my high heels (murder!!!) and size 12 'LBD' - looking good!!
BUT - I have reached the stage now where I want to "GO FURTHER"!! I watched all of the other women wearing a variety of very expensive evening gowns (lots of flesh on view that to my mind would have been better covered up - sniff!!) and I thought
"NYE is coming and if I can get myself in gear I can be here again in a little over 5 months time in the slinkiest, sexiest ballgown imaginable".
I have been this size for so long now (about 3/4 weeks!!) that I am starting to see myself as fat again . I am a size 10/12 - something I would have 'died' to be during the past 3/4 years but I am starting to feel FAT again!!
I no longer notice my bony shoulders and chest nor the fact that my hip bones have reappeared and see only the fact that my thighs could be slimmer and my tum less 'wobbley'. The 'excitement' of slipping into a size 10 pair of jeans has also abated and when I stand in front of the mirror I see only the imperfections.
I think that given my frame I could comfortably be a size 8.
So that is where I am 'going' - to 'Size-Eight-ville'.
Isn't it odd that no matter how much success we have there is always another aim/target?
Night night.