Cookeh
Recovering Cookie Addict
Seriously? I am sabotaging myself and I don't know why, I just can't get a handle on things.
I'm sitting at home on Tuesday night, its about 9pm and out of nowhere I find myself scurrying across to the garage, loading up on chocolate, coming home and stuffing my face. I tell myself I needed it and its fine, I'll start over tomorrow. Wednesday comes and I wake thinking what an idiot I should've eaten a meal, I'm starving after all. It's all I can think about and despite being on plan I call a Chinese at 6pm and by 8pm I'm back at the garage stocking up. I wake Thursday much calmer, no hunger, no cravings and the day goes perfectly, til 9pm when I'm hurrying back to the garage for chocolate. This is INSANE! I don't know why I'm doing it, I feel possessed, seriously! I weighed in today to face the damage, 5.8lbs gained in 3 days, in the hope it'll force me to draw a line under it. It's scary. I really don't know what's driving this urge to binge. It's less than 12 weeks til my trip and at this rate I won't achieve my goal. It's as though I'm deliberately sabotaging my efforts. Any thoughts? x
I'm sitting at home on Tuesday night, its about 9pm and out of nowhere I find myself scurrying across to the garage, loading up on chocolate, coming home and stuffing my face. I tell myself I needed it and its fine, I'll start over tomorrow. Wednesday comes and I wake thinking what an idiot I should've eaten a meal, I'm starving after all. It's all I can think about and despite being on plan I call a Chinese at 6pm and by 8pm I'm back at the garage stocking up. I wake Thursday much calmer, no hunger, no cravings and the day goes perfectly, til 9pm when I'm hurrying back to the garage for chocolate. This is INSANE! I don't know why I'm doing it, I feel possessed, seriously! I weighed in today to face the damage, 5.8lbs gained in 3 days, in the hope it'll force me to draw a line under it. It's scary. I really don't know what's driving this urge to binge. It's less than 12 weeks til my trip and at this rate I won't achieve my goal. It's as though I'm deliberately sabotaging my efforts. Any thoughts? x