Hi,
I'm 24 and 18.9 stones. I've never been slim and feeling so low at the mo. To the outside world I'm successful but to me I'm a loser. No self discipline and use food as my only friend who I can rely on to make me feel good, if it goes then what do I have left??
I can never forget my grandad calling me fat and ugly God alone only knows how that hurt and makes me cry just writing it.
The annoying thing is I carry the weight well and get regular comments on 'how good I look' which is fine as I do make a big effort to look half decent but want to be happy with my weight.
My goal is 15 st for now but how when there is no motivation. I'm gonna look back on life and regret wasting these precious yrs but it's so painfull as my eating helps with emotions as there's no one else.
Can't have another summer indoors or rapped up in clothes. What to do????? Anyone have a lazer beam to take fat away or mend a broken heart
Gonna try and just eat the healthy foods I love and have found a new passion in green smoothies using spinach and mangoes so maybe there's a start.
Thanks for reading. Xx
I'm 24 and 18.9 stones. I've never been slim and feeling so low at the mo. To the outside world I'm successful but to me I'm a loser. No self discipline and use food as my only friend who I can rely on to make me feel good, if it goes then what do I have left??
I can never forget my grandad calling me fat and ugly God alone only knows how that hurt and makes me cry just writing it.
The annoying thing is I carry the weight well and get regular comments on 'how good I look' which is fine as I do make a big effort to look half decent but want to be happy with my weight.
My goal is 15 st for now but how when there is no motivation. I'm gonna look back on life and regret wasting these precious yrs but it's so painfull as my eating helps with emotions as there's no one else.
Can't have another summer indoors or rapped up in clothes. What to do????? Anyone have a lazer beam to take fat away or mend a broken heart
Gonna try and just eat the healthy foods I love and have found a new passion in green smoothies using spinach and mangoes so maybe there's a start.
Thanks for reading. Xx