disgusted in myself bluuuuuuuurg

natalieann

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right everyone ive had a bad two weeks and stayed the same, which im happy with in way as didnt gain at least, but anyway, as you all know i lost 3 stone on this and gotvery close to goal, then i regained a stone and came back but been finding it hard, anyway that aside

when i lost my first two stone felt amazing, couldnt stop looking in the mirror, confidence took pics and uploaded them etc, but since i gain a stone back i feel fat and ugly,even tho im still 2 stone lighter then when i started which is still brill

i was ready to jack it all in today and join slimming world, but whats stopped me is........... i learned two new dances on dance central, and while doing them felt great, really sexy and very proud id learned them to get a score of 97% out of 100% of the moves right, so i thought i mist be good at it, copying the slim sexy dancer on screen made me feel just as sexy UNTIL
i got my little girl to film me doing just dance-lady gaga and cascada-evacuate the dancefloor, felt brill doing it, all moves perfect score-i sh*t hot at this i thought, anyway on wathing the vids back i wanted to cry, i just look like a misshapen fat worn down mother, i look awful, my arms, face, neck, belly were all wobbly and im now discusting in myself that i ever thought i looked better, yeah a little but i still look fat as hell, saggy, and revolting

rant over, im gutted:sigh:
 
Oh Nat, come on now sweetheart, don't get upset........you'll find the willpower again and I'm sure that you look nowhere near as bad as you think! trouble is even as we get thinner we still can't see it ....I still think I'm a size 16/18, when I felt exactly as you do now, but then realise (light bulb momentish) that I'm (only) a size 12...... But it's still not enough.......we beat ourselves up cos the media dictates that we all have to look like supermodels or yummy mummies.....the reality is that we are just ordinary women and we have to learn to be happy in our skins........

Don't fret if you can't get back on tfr, why not try 2 shakes a day for a few days, reduce the carbs and see if you can ease yourself back into it........whatever you do don't get upset and ruin all your good work. You've put on a few lbs, so what? Ok it's not good but you've only delayed getting to target, you're not back to square one!

Tomorrow is another day, so put that bloody video away will you! X
 
*slaps natalie* hunni you look amazing i remember how big you was hun and from what i can see in your pics (cos i ant seen u for ages) is that you look AMAZING and you know you can do it hun, you just need to believe you can.....where's that girl power gone?? come on nat it's in there somewhere, but don't beat yourself up hun. think of this what size was you? and now?

love ya babes xx
 
Aw. This post made me feel so sad.

I have never looked at myself and hated what i see, i can only imagine how awful that feels. I am sending u a big pile of self belief and confidence.

Please dont think u are awful because i am sure u arent. U know that saying dance like noone is watching. I live by that. U felt fab because u were fab. Dance more and get ur daughter to dance with u, have fun with it. U are beautiful, we all are. Let ur beauty shine hun x x
 
Oh Nat, come on now sweetheart, don't get upset........you'll find the willpower again and I'm sure that you look nowhere near as bad as you think! trouble is even as we get thinner we still can't see it ....I still think I'm a size 16/18, when I felt exactly as you do now, but then realise (light bulb momentish) that I'm (only) a size 12...... But it's still not enough.......we beat ourselves up cos the media dictates that we all have to look like supermodels or yummy mummies.....the reality is that we are just ordinary women and we have to learn to be happy in our skins........

Don't fret if you can't get back on tfr, why not try 2 shakes a day for a few days, reduce the carbs and see if you can ease yourself back into it........whatever you do don't get upset and ruin all your good work. You've put on a few lbs, so what? Ok it's not good but you've only delayed getting to target, you're not back to square one!

Tomorrow is another day, so put that bloody video away will you! X

thanks hun i know i can always rely in you, to kick me into touch, i agree with all your saying, but my god i do look awful on the video, why not in the mirror?
 
*slaps natalie* hunni you look amazing i remember how big you was hun and from what i can see in your pics (cos i ant seen u for ages) is that you look AMAZING and you know you can do it hun, you just need to believe you can.....where's that girl power gone?? come on nat it's in there somewhere, but don't beat yourself up hun. think of this what size was you? and now?

love ya babes xx

i know kelly love i know but i havent taken a pic of me since gaining the stone back all those pic on facebook are from when i lost the 3 stone, i felt great and had to take lots of pics but now i darnt even look at a camera after that vid lol, no way
 
Aw. This post made me feel so sad.

I have never looked at myself and hated what i see, i can only imagine how awful that feels. I am sending u a big pile of self belief and confidence.

Please dont think u are awful because i am sure u arent. U know that saying dance like noone is watching. I live by that. U felt fab because u were fab. Dance more and get ur daughter to dance with u, have fun with it. U are beautiful, we all are. Let ur beauty shine hun x x
awww bless you hun thats really lovely:D thanks

i suppose seeing myself was like a big massive thump back to cold harsh reality:cry:
 
Dont feel disgusted! Chin up, smile and salute it with a middle finger! I hate the video bit on kinect, when my tshirt rides up and it shows all my belly urghh but it'll be sorted soon, very soon. Keep smiling x
 
Dont feel disgusted! Chin up, smile and salute it with a middle finger! I hate the video bit on kinect, when my tshirt rides up and it shows all my belly urghh but it'll be sorted soon, very soon. Keep smiling x

its awful gina, but if the kinect video isn bad enough i had to film myself on my fone to make matters worse lol, how are you doing anyway love

and why cant they have dancers on there that arnt a size bloody 6
 
its awful gina, but if the kinect video isn bad enough i had to film myself on my fone to make matters worse lol, how are you doing anyway love

and why cant they have dancers on there that arnt a size bloody 6

Youre a silly billy then arent ya! Fancy doing that, should know phones make you put 10lbs on ;) lol dont do it again and skip the 'lets see your highlights' bit on kinect lol! As for the dancers, really size 6 but would you want to look like them? I wouldnt lol! I'm ok, dont start til Wednesday, got cameras following me though so you'll see your old pad on TV!!!! Lol, how cool!! How are you?Xxx
 
Youre a silly billy then arent ya! Fancy doing that, should know phones make you put 10lbs on ;) lol dont do it again and skip the 'lets see your highlights' bit on kinect lol! As for the dancers, really size 6 but would you want to look like them? I wouldnt lol! I'm ok, dont start til Wednesday, got cameras following me though so you'll see your old pad on TV!!!! Lol, how cool!! How are you?Xxx

yeah i deffo wont do it again, and how can you skip your highlights hun,???

and what you got cameras for, how what why when lol
 
yeah i deffo wont do it again, and how can you skip your highlights hun,???

and what you got cameras for, how what why when lol

Erm you know when it says [on dance central] freestyle bit in the middle? I usually just shimmy my arse into kitchen grab a glass of water and go back in - therefore it doesnt record you. On kinectsports theres abit on right hand side that says continue :) Lol you know that programme 'will my crash diet kill me' ive applied, meeting someone tomorrow to decide if im suitable and if I want them to follow my every move [inc movements on the loo] if its a yes on both sides then they'll follow me from Wednesday for the next, 6 weeks or so. Crikey, im paranoid for myself now. I keep cleaning up and making sure all is in order and the dog has plenty of stuff to keep her quiet lol!! It'll be aired, summer time x
 
Erm you know when it says [on dance central] freestyle bit in the middle? I usually just shimmy my arse into kitchen grab a glass of water and go back in - therefore it doesnt record you. On kinectsports theres abit on right hand side that says continue :) Lol you know that programme 'will my crash diet kill me' ive applied, meeting someone tomorrow to decide if im suitable and if I want them to follow my every move [inc movements on the loo] if its a yes on both sides then they'll follow me from Wednesday for the next, 6 weeks or so. Crikey, im paranoid for myself now. I keep cleaning up and making sure all is in order and the dog has plenty of stuff to keep her quiet lol!! It'll be aired, summer time x

oh right cool ill do that, and yeah i always walk away love to get a drink too

and ohhh ohhhhi wanna apply, how do i do it, mite give me a big incentive to carry on, wow wow
 
oh right cool ill do that, and yeah i always walk away love to get a drink too

and ohhh ohhhhi wanna apply, how do i do it, mite give me a big incentive to carry on, wow wow

Haha LOL email them. If you go to ch4 website and search the programme im sure it'll be in there somewhere, I cant remember the email add though, was about 2 weeks ago when I applied. No more midday naps for Natalie if they take you on hahaha :p
 
Haha LOL email them. If you go to ch4 website and search the programme im sure it'll be in there somewhere, I cant remember the email add though, was about 2 weeks ago when I applied. No more midday naps for Natalie if they take you on hahaha :p

haha mike just said if i apply then ill see a lot less of hi as he wont be filmed lol, mardy bum men:D

i wont need naps when doing it 100 percent as i have much more energy oddly:confused:
 
haha mike just said if i apply then ill see a lot less of hi as he wont be filmed lol, mardy bum men:D

i wont need naps when doing it 100 percent as i have much more energy oddly:confused:

Urgh all Craig said was 'up to you but dont let them in bedroom as ill take camp up there' :( wish he'd bugger off for a few days lol!!

Its the nutrition isnt it? 100% getting all your RDA whereas in reality, most people dont. I felt great that first week, yeah a couple of down moments but this time i'm going for it 100%, no hiccups, 16 week challenge. Been doing my water everyday for a week, got the taste for sparkling water too now, got a bulk pack of sweetners lol... im ready, head on this time! Have you ever had anything like this VLCD Water Flavour suitable for Shake & Ketosis Diets on eBay (end time 11-Feb-11 17:55:05 GMT) ?? Not sure what to think of it, I mean, will it be ok and things? :confused:

Keep going chick, keep smiling and watch the lbs fall off! Btw, im doing a challenge, Pound for a pound. For ever lb I shift, my family are all chipping in to make it up in cash :D Then Craigs added an extra 20quid in for every stone. Woop!

You should pop in one day when kids are at school love, have a [black] coffee lol xxx
 
Urgh all Craig said was 'up to you but dont let them in bedroom as ill take camp up there' :( wish he'd bugger off for a few days lol!!

Its the nutrition isnt it? 100% getting all your RDA whereas in reality, most people dont. I felt great that first week, yeah a couple of down moments but this time i'm going for it 100%, no hiccups, 16 week challenge. Been doing my water everyday for a week, got the taste for sparkling water too now, got a bulk pack of sweetners lol... im ready, head on this time! Have you ever had anything like this VLCD Water Flavour suitable for Shake & Ketosis Diets on eBay (end time 11-Feb-11 17:55:05 GMT) ?? Not sure what to think of it, I mean, will it be ok and things? :confused:

Keep going chick, keep smiling and watch the lbs fall off! Btw, im doing a challenge, Pound for a pound. For ever lb I shift, my family are all chipping in to make it up in cash :D Then Craigs added an extra 20quid in for every stone. Woop!

You should pop in one day when kids are at school love, have a [black] coffee lol xxx
ive never tried them love but some have, some dont agree, but its all personal preferance, let me know what its like lol

thats a good idea with the money then you can buy new clothes when done hehe
and yeah will do sometime love, yummy black coffee not
 
Urgh all Craig said was 'up to you but dont let them in bedroom as ill take camp up there' :( wish he'd bugger off for a few days lol!!

Its the nutrition isnt it? 100% getting all your RDA whereas in reality, most people dont. I felt great that first week, yeah a couple of down moments but this time i'm going for it 100%, no hiccups, 16 week challenge. Been doing my water everyday for a week, got the taste for sparkling water too now, got a bulk pack of sweetners lol... im ready, head on this time! Have you ever had anything like this VLCD Water Flavour suitable for Shake & Ketosis Diets on eBay (end time 11-Feb-11 17:55:05 GMT) ?? Not sure what to
think of it, I mean, will it be ok and things? :confused:

Keep going chick, keep smiling and watch the lbs fall off! Btw, im doing a challenge, Pound for a pound. For ever lb I shift, my family are all chipping in to make it up in cash :D Then Craigs
added an extra 20quid in for every stone. Woop!

You should pop in one day when kids are at school love, have a [black] coffee lol xxx

Please to hear that everyone's behind you now babes!
 
ive never tried them love but some have, some dont agree, but its all personal preferance, let me know what its like lol

thats a good idea with the money then you can buy new clothes when done hehe
and yeah will do sometime love, yummy black coffee not

Will do chick :) Yup yummmmmy black coffee lol hope your feeling better today x
 
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