toller-girl
constantly confused
Well, that's the goal anyway.
Getting to my goal weight will mean a lot to me for several reasons. I won't just feel happy with how I look, but for years I've felt that it's an impossible goal, but realistically, why is it?
I've done so much the last few years that I thought was impossible. 2 and a half years ago I was unhappily married but too emotionally and practically dependent to leave, anti social, depressed and almost agoraphobic, and with responsibilities weighing me down and limiting my choices.
Now I'm nearly divorced (it was him that left, I'd never have been brave enough), living alone and independently, I have an active social life, great friends and have started stand up comedy. Something I'd always dreamed of, but always thought was impossible.
If I can do THAT, then a simple maths equation (consume fewer calories than I use) should be a doddle, right?
I need to prove to myself that I can do this. I can take this step and feel proud of myself for achieving something that I didn't think I could.
I'm just having an inner debate about the right way to do it.
I'm having a major dilemma!
I've got just under a stone and a half to lose to reach my normal BMI, but my goal weight is a stone under that.
I don't want to get to goal purely through doing the Cambridge Diet. What I want is to be fit and healthy and the sort of person who does active things for fun. I used to be, and I feel like my weight holds me back a lot. Not through limiting what I can physically do, (I'm a size 12/14, usually a 12 but some has crept on recently hence restarting!) but just how self conscious I feel.
I work shifts, and the only exercise class I can do is an early morning boot camp one, 3 days a week. It's going to be very intense and hard work, and probably make me want to cry.
So, option one: Do Cambridge Diet for a month, and then start Boot Camp in March and return to healthy eating.
pros:
* By that time, I'll have had my cooker fixed (a huge factor in living off convenience food and putting on weight!)
* I'll have a better shape, even if the results on the scales aren't as dramatic.
* It's healthier. I'll feel fitter and like I'm doing something more positive and sustainable.
* Cambridge Diet tends to make me quite ill. I get extremely weak and dizzy!
* I can always return to CD if required.
* I'll be making a start on establishing the habits that I'll need to maintain in order to stay at my goal weight.
* I'll feel proud of myself.
cons:
* It's not as black and white. CD you either do it or you don't. If you do it, you will lose weight. With healthy eating, there's a whole load of other issues (portion size, doing it regularly, establishing habits) but then, they're issues I will have to face at some point, maybe sooner is better than later?
* I'm scared I won't reach goal that way. With CD, if I just stay on the packs until I reach goal, then I will reach goal. I don't like ambiguity.
Option two: Stay on CD for Feb and March, and start Boot Camp and healthy eating in April.
Pros:
* 2 months on CD, I'll be at my healthy BMI, and have just over half a stone left to get to goal, which should be achievable on healthy eating and exercise.
* I'll feel less embarrassed alongside all the skinnies at boot camp.
* I'll probably only have to buy 2 sports bras, as opposed to three, as my body changes.
cons:
* By then, I might have loose skin and saggy bits. It'll presumably be harder to fix those, than prevent them via exercising earlier on in the weight loss process.
* It's much more expensive.
* It's putting off learning the long term management skills that I want to develop. I want exercise to be something I do as a way of life, not just as a weight loss tool.
* I'll feel like death on Cambridge for that long!
* That method focuses more on weight rather than health and fitness, and I'd rather concentrate on the latter.
* As crazy as it sounds, I really want to get into the boot camp as soon as possible!
I think, reading that list back to myself, I've decided that Cambridge for a month followed by exercise and healthy eating is the right approach for me.
It terrifies me, but maybe that's what's important?
I'm also going to adjust my goals to 'healthy BMI' first, then I'll look at where I want to be in an ideal world when I've reached that.
Getting to my goal weight will mean a lot to me for several reasons. I won't just feel happy with how I look, but for years I've felt that it's an impossible goal, but realistically, why is it?
I've done so much the last few years that I thought was impossible. 2 and a half years ago I was unhappily married but too emotionally and practically dependent to leave, anti social, depressed and almost agoraphobic, and with responsibilities weighing me down and limiting my choices.
Now I'm nearly divorced (it was him that left, I'd never have been brave enough), living alone and independently, I have an active social life, great friends and have started stand up comedy. Something I'd always dreamed of, but always thought was impossible.
If I can do THAT, then a simple maths equation (consume fewer calories than I use) should be a doddle, right?
I need to prove to myself that I can do this. I can take this step and feel proud of myself for achieving something that I didn't think I could.
I'm just having an inner debate about the right way to do it.
I'm having a major dilemma!
I've got just under a stone and a half to lose to reach my normal BMI, but my goal weight is a stone under that.
I don't want to get to goal purely through doing the Cambridge Diet. What I want is to be fit and healthy and the sort of person who does active things for fun. I used to be, and I feel like my weight holds me back a lot. Not through limiting what I can physically do, (I'm a size 12/14, usually a 12 but some has crept on recently hence restarting!) but just how self conscious I feel.
I work shifts, and the only exercise class I can do is an early morning boot camp one, 3 days a week. It's going to be very intense and hard work, and probably make me want to cry.
So, option one: Do Cambridge Diet for a month, and then start Boot Camp in March and return to healthy eating.
pros:
* By that time, I'll have had my cooker fixed (a huge factor in living off convenience food and putting on weight!)
* I'll have a better shape, even if the results on the scales aren't as dramatic.
* It's healthier. I'll feel fitter and like I'm doing something more positive and sustainable.
* Cambridge Diet tends to make me quite ill. I get extremely weak and dizzy!
* I can always return to CD if required.
* I'll be making a start on establishing the habits that I'll need to maintain in order to stay at my goal weight.
* I'll feel proud of myself.
cons:
* It's not as black and white. CD you either do it or you don't. If you do it, you will lose weight. With healthy eating, there's a whole load of other issues (portion size, doing it regularly, establishing habits) but then, they're issues I will have to face at some point, maybe sooner is better than later?
* I'm scared I won't reach goal that way. With CD, if I just stay on the packs until I reach goal, then I will reach goal. I don't like ambiguity.
Option two: Stay on CD for Feb and March, and start Boot Camp and healthy eating in April.
Pros:
* 2 months on CD, I'll be at my healthy BMI, and have just over half a stone left to get to goal, which should be achievable on healthy eating and exercise.
* I'll feel less embarrassed alongside all the skinnies at boot camp.
* I'll probably only have to buy 2 sports bras, as opposed to three, as my body changes.
cons:
* By then, I might have loose skin and saggy bits. It'll presumably be harder to fix those, than prevent them via exercising earlier on in the weight loss process.
* It's much more expensive.
* It's putting off learning the long term management skills that I want to develop. I want exercise to be something I do as a way of life, not just as a weight loss tool.
* I'll feel like death on Cambridge for that long!
* That method focuses more on weight rather than health and fitness, and I'd rather concentrate on the latter.
* As crazy as it sounds, I really want to get into the boot camp as soon as possible!
I think, reading that list back to myself, I've decided that Cambridge for a month followed by exercise and healthy eating is the right approach for me.
It terrifies me, but maybe that's what's important?
I'm also going to adjust my goals to 'healthy BMI' first, then I'll look at where I want to be in an ideal world when I've reached that.