minirog
Silver Member
It was my mum's birthday this weekend and she cooked a BIG meal for all the family. She cooked some of my fave things (don't think this was deliberate!). I avoided all this and sat at the table through their 3 courses and just ate my one grilled chicken breast and three tbs of broccoli.
Then.... she gets out 'tea' and it includes roast chicken, makerel, hot bread, cheeses, trifle, bread pudding chocolate cake and more!
Then... we all sit round that table (with the food still on it) to play a game. Man!
I was actually crying it was so hard. I ended up eating
I ate 1,500 calories! I had 175g roast chicken (no skin) 1 slice of bread (no butter), cherry tomatos...... and then a slice of chocolate cake and a piece of bread pudding. Topped off with 5 thorntons chocolates.
I hate myself. I am so so stupid.
I ended up eating 1,900 cals in total yesterday and (as I'm on the 810 plan) that is over TWO DAYS allowance
I'm going sole source tomorrow until the end of the week, but I'm stressing so so badly.
I really hate myself right now. I hate being fat and ugly and I just wish I had a normal relationship with food. Why did I eat the cake AND the bread pudding AND the chocates. I could saved myself about 750 cals if I'd just had the birthday cake and chicken. So so DUMB!
Sorry.... rant over
Then.... she gets out 'tea' and it includes roast chicken, makerel, hot bread, cheeses, trifle, bread pudding chocolate cake and more!
Then... we all sit round that table (with the food still on it) to play a game. Man!
I was actually crying it was so hard. I ended up eating
I ate 1,500 calories! I had 175g roast chicken (no skin) 1 slice of bread (no butter), cherry tomatos...... and then a slice of chocolate cake and a piece of bread pudding. Topped off with 5 thorntons chocolates.
I hate myself. I am so so stupid.
I ended up eating 1,900 cals in total yesterday and (as I'm on the 810 plan) that is over TWO DAYS allowance
I'm going sole source tomorrow until the end of the week, but I'm stressing so so badly.
I really hate myself right now. I hate being fat and ugly and I just wish I had a normal relationship with food. Why did I eat the cake AND the bread pudding AND the chocates. I could saved myself about 750 cals if I'd just had the birthday cake and chicken. So so DUMB!
Sorry.... rant over