Doner meat and chips

So I'm at work and just asked for some and was told no, at least someone has my weight loss in mind

Lol - U make me laugh hun x

I make myself laugh, I say I want to lose weight so bad ready for my surgery but I just can't keep away from food

sounds like you are in an addiction cycle hon, and once you are in the "ritual" of the addiction it can be damn near impossible to stop it in it's path hence the eating even when your mind is screaming "no". You have to work out where your ritual starts and then you'll be able to break out of it earlier. Think of it like an alcoholic who has to choose not to drink each and every time.

This kind of explains it better
The Ritual of Food Addiction : Conquer Your Food Addiction

Cheers hun xx