bikerkitty's diary... starting again with propoints!

shrinkingalice

Silver Member
hey everyone, i fell off the ww wagon well and truely and ive put on the weight i lost, and more! i went to WI for first time to a new meeting and ive put on about a stone n a half :cry:i feel crappy but ive come back to the board and im going to give it 100% this time... i was doing really well last time i dont know what happened but ive been through some really bad times lately so im blaming that!! i know i can only blame myself. im going to be writing here alot more as it really helps to "speak" my mind. im usually just so worried about what people will think of me that i dont really say much. im trying to change that about myself, first stage is losing some weight.

my first goal is to get 5% so thats what my ticker is showing the goal too. im taking this is small stages or i just get too overwhelmed, feel down and then think i cant do it. so small stages with a good non food reward when i achieve them.

Im off food shopping shortly so back soon :)
 
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Hi :)

Don't worry, you're back on it now and that's what's important - you can do this chick! :) xx
 
just been for a nice lil walk in the countryside and it was nice but i felt a bit crappy because i used to be able to run futher than i can even walk now, its sad but i know i can get back to that stage soon enough. i had a yummy tea as well tonight of quorn chilli and rice for 4.5 points :D nom nom hehe. also did 30 mins on ez active earlier too so im feeling positive for week ones weigh in next week :)
 
well done on the biggest hurdle of all - getting back on the wagon :)

quorn chilli sounds lovely.. did you make it yourself? x
 
yeah the quorn chilli i made myself, i did it with frozen onion, frozen mushroom and frozen peppers, and the frozen quorn mince. i have a big thing about buying fresh veg and then letting it rot in my fridge so ive found these frozen veg so much better and they last for a while too. just had the rest of the chilli i made for my lunch with some ww bread and mmm it was even better the 2nd time lol. i did 30 mins on ea active again this morning before breakfast and it was a bit hard but i still completed it even tho half way thru i wanted to turn it off lol. ive been doing the hardest level of activity on there and it feels much more like a workout, i HATE kickups tho, omg! they make me sweat and pant lol.

Im sticking to the fast start amount of points of 22 a day instead of my usual 30. saved 2 yesterday though because i went to bed early and forgot i had 2 left. im still not very impressed with my fitness level being zero, but still know i'll get back to where i was. exercise is definately helping my depression because im not just sat watching tv all day lol. im going to go for a walk before x factor tonight as well, just a short one but still nice to get some fresh air. Im really excited about my WI on tuesday tho because i know my hard work will pay off and it should be a good big loss as its my first weigh in :) thats always so inspiring!
 
that sounds like a really good idea about the walk!

i've not done EA active before but i've definitely heard its not easy!

Btw, love your avatar and i've seen your cat lady blinkie on your sig.. do you have many cats then? I have one called Amber - shes been missing since the 5th and she never is usually away for more than an hour or two :( dead worried about her.
 
i have 3 cats they are my babies, id have a housefull if i could lol i love cats <3 im so sorry to hear about Amber have you put posters up in ur area? my cat Victor (the one in the avatar) went missing about a year ago for about 4 days and i put posters up on day 3 of him being missing and he arrived at the back door meowing on day 4 morning, i think someone had taken him in or shut him somewhere and seen the posters so let him out. i know how traumatic it is for them to go missing!! i hope you find her soon xxxx
 
aww poor Victor - pleased you got him back! Amber has been missing since Tuesday morning.. so 5 days now :( I've got posters up everywhere but no word so far :(

how is the WW going? x
 
ive stuck to the plan 100% since i started on wednesday so im proud of myself even though for some reason i was sooo hungry yesterday i normally would have eaten my entire fridge contents but i made 0 point soup instead and ate that :) got half of it in the freezer incase i have another one of those moments lol. i havent exercised today because my legs/bum are aching from davina's "superfit" dvd i swear she enjoys trying to kill me lol. i might go for a walk later on but to be honest im feeling really lazy today! ive been awake for 4 hours and i could happily go back to bed and sleep lots more lol. waking up at 7am for no particular reason is peculiar for me to say the least but its becoming the norm for me now. i have to admit though i am still in my pjs haha. i might actually go on wii fit for a bit before lunch, i feel bad wen i dont exercise lol plus ive not really got anything better to be doing!!

in 10 days i should have a phone line again, yey! that means real broadband again instead of this crappy dongle. i was getting so angry with it earlier when it was going incredibly S....L....O.......W. it seems a bit faster now thankfully i wont have to throw it through a window! Ive made a start on my lil xmas project which is sewing my friends and family a little cross stitch picture for their xmas cards, ive done 2 so far, only another 8 to go so i might actually get it done before xmas haha. i know some people wont really appreciate that they are getting a cross stitch card and not a present but its tough luck! its called thrift haha. wow long post, i guess i felt like typing hehe ba-byeee xxx
 
just been to WI number one and ive lost 4 lbs :) i cant help but feel a little bit disappointed because first weeks for me are usually 6-8lbs but still 4 lbs off is good, its the right direction and im pleased.

my leader at this new meeting is... boring! and theres a woman there who thinks she knows everything there is to know about ww and metabolism and stuff... some of the things she was coming out with were... wrong for a start but people were wowing her and stuff, it annoyed me somewhat so im probably going to change to friday morning weigh ins with the leader i know and like instead. shes at least inspiring, unlike this one. i dont know i might see if it improves next week or not... who knows.

11lbs to my 5% goal... here i come :)
 
4lbs is great hun.. as our bodies get used to diets you tend to find the losses get smaller.. but as long as you're heading in the right direction, whats an extra lb or two? :) x
 
Well done on the 4lbs hun that's great news! :D xxx
 
ive been sticking to my points so far this week everyday but after i read "your week" from ww this week ive got my head in a right mess, theres a bit about weight loss myths and i always thought u had to eat all your points everyday or save 4 or u will stay the same and not lose, the thing in your week said that you dont have to eat all your points each day as long as you dont go below 14 points a day. This is probably the worst thing i could ever read because now im thinking well if i eat less points i'll lose more, going off my history with food its not a great thing to be thinking... i dont want to get into old habits of eating a piece of toast and thats about it a day. i know that wouldnt be 14 points but im just always going to be thinking that the less i eat the more i'll lose now after reading that. it even says that in the magazine thing, less points you eat = more weight loss. its totally stupid that anyone trying to promote a healthy lifestyle would possibly say that, never mind print it in something every member is going to read. It really has messed with my brain... its not in a very good state anyway and just something else to add to its craziness. i spend most of the day thinking about weight watchers and food, i hate that i can become so obsessive about things. ive injured my hip by exercising too hard and too long and ignoring the pain because i cant seem to go a day without exercising or else i feel bad and feel guilty till it eats away at me and i get up and exercise anyway. i know thats going to end up damaging my hip more and im in agony with it all over again now after 2 days off exercising and then being stupid and doing too much this morning. Im so angry with myself at the moment, i just want to lose weight and its all ive ever wanted. i guiltily jumped on the scales last night and my scales say ive put 4lbs on since wednesdays weigh in. its really made me feel terrible and i know i should never weigh more than once a week but its a bad habit of weighing myself everyday that ruins my progress. if i put weight on this week at weigh in i will be so angry because ive pointed. i always think i will put weight on wen i go to ww. i was even disappointed with the 4lb loss last week because i expected more with it being my first week. a normal week i would be extatic with that loss. i dont know whats happening to me, im so pissed off with life right now, things are going so wrong and i just feel like crying :(
 
ive been sticking to my points so far this week everyday but after i read "your week" from ww this week ive got my head in a right mess, theres a bit about weight loss myths and i always thought u had to eat all your points everyday or save 4 or u will stay the same and not lose, the thing in your week said that you dont have to eat all your points each day as long as you dont go below 14 points a day. This is probably the worst thing i could ever read because now im thinking well if i eat less points i'll lose more, going off my history with food its not a great thing to be thinking... i dont want to get into old habits of eating a piece of toast and thats about it a day. i know that wouldnt be 14 points but im just always going to be thinking that the less i eat the more i'll lose now after reading that. it even says that in the magazine thing, less points you eat = more weight loss. its totally stupid that anyone trying to promote a healthy lifestyle would possibly say that, never mind print it in something every member is going to read. It really has messed with my brain... its not in a very good state anyway and just something else to add to its craziness. i spend most of the day thinking about weight watchers and food, i hate that i can become so obsessive about things. ive injured my hip by exercising too hard and too long and ignoring the pain because i cant seem to go a day without exercising or else i feel bad and feel guilty till it eats away at me and i get up and exercise anyway. i know thats going to end up damaging my hip more and im in agony with it all over again now after 2 days off exercising and then being stupid and doing too much this morning. Im so angry with myself at the moment, i just want to lose weight and its all ive ever wanted. i guiltily jumped on the scales last night and my scales say ive put 4lbs on since wednesdays weigh in. its really made me feel terrible and i know i should never weigh more than once a week but its a bad habit of weighing myself everyday that ruins my progress. if i put weight on this week at weigh in i will be so angry because ive pointed. i always think i will put weight on wen i go to ww. i was even disappointed with the 4lb loss last week because i expected more with it being my first week. a normal week i would be extatic with that loss. i dont know whats happening to me, im so pissed off with life right now, things are going so wrong and i just feel like crying :(

Ok hun...sit back, take a breath...:) Don't cry sweetie.

Firstly, I can fully relate to how you are feeling. I can understand how bloody hard and tough dieting can be. It's not as easy as "just eat less". It's a physical, and even more so - an emotional battle.

As hard as it is, just try and go back to the basics. Stick to the points you need to have for your gender, height, age etc as this is the number you need to have in order to lose weight healthily. I have no idea why they are saying "the less points, the better" as it's obvious that would be starving/depriving yourself of nutrients your body needs in order to function/stay healthy.

It's so so easy to get stuck in a rut when it comes to dieting and you think you need to exercise every day and eat next to nothing when you don't hun. Your body is obviously crying out for a rest - hence the pain so try and listen to your body hun. It's telling you to slow right down.

You CAN do this - you absolutely can. There's nothing that can stop you, you just have to keep going. It's never going to be easy, but when you feel like it's all getting on top of you just take a step back, go and have a nice hot bath and relax. You know what to do to lose weight healthily, otherwise WW wouldn't be successful. :)

Come on darling, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and give yourself some credit.

We are always here if you want a chat and I'm so sorry you're feeling low. I hope you feel better x

Love Jess xxx
<big cuddles> xx
 
thanks so much jess, that means alot to me :) ive not been as obsessive today ive noticed which is a good thing, plus my mum took me shopping and bought me food bless her, since i have no money left already this week lol. had a stressful weekend as well but stuck to my points. just stuff was getting on top of me, i think i needed that rant lol. i feel a bit stuck at times because i dont really have friends who i can talk to about this sort of thing but at least i have this little place instead. i'll be happier when i get weighed this week and hopfully lose weight because well, ive stuck to plan perfectly. and then i will remember that ww works!! thanks again jess xxxxx
 
hun, calm down.. step back and evaluate.

WW are really stupid if they've printed that. In reality, yes, that might be the case on one or two weeks - but you know that to continue your journey long term, you cant sustain eating that low a number of points per day.

you'll be on a fair few points, so why not just focus on doing two weeks of fast start, which would be much more suitable than only eating 14 points a day!

xx
 
so weigh in number two, i lost 1lb... im not gonna pretend that im happy with that, but i know, at least its in the right direction lol. i just couldnt exercise as much as i wanted so i guess thats what has affected it, i always aim for 2lbs a week and i would be happy if i could get to that. but hey, 1lb better than 0!! :)
 
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