Hi all,
I'm new and could really do with a hug!
A bit of a story, as with all of us I guess; always been chunky, in my teens I developed chronic anxiety disorder as well as my diagnosis of M.E.
Now at 24 I'm proud to say that I have overcome my anxiety problems with the help of much therapy, and have stopped punishing myself for my slip ups in eating. Thats very much a long and traumatic story short.
Looking back, it now occurs to me, that the only element controlling my eating, was my own fear of my own punishment. I kept myself under a certain weight, while still unhappy with my shape, and still over eating and eating incredibly poorly, simply by shame and fear of eating. Anxiety therapy leading into control aspects with binge bulimia therapy kicked that in the butt. And I'm a better person for it.
The problem is, I now still eat, too big portions, a lot of take aways, even though I still loath how I look and how I feel, but I no longer feel shame afterwards, so, despite knowing that I need to stop doing it or I'll get both bigger and unhealthier, I still keep going.
I'm a mess, and I've got issues, theres no two ways about that, but at least I know it.
Please friends, I am a bright person! I am fun, and friendly and kind, but I am low. And I really need to learn from you how you stay focused, how you control the food you prepare and how you remind yourself, without punishment, that you're doing these things for a reason.
After many months of trying to hook myself on to various methods, I have a slow cooker, we're settled on skimmed milk, I have a freezer full of WW and Tesco Light Choices meals, cans of Slim Fast in the cupboard, you name it.
What do I do? What do YOU do?
Over dramatic as it sounds, I really could do with someone to hold my hand and be a guide through this.
Thank you!
I'm new and could really do with a hug!
A bit of a story, as with all of us I guess; always been chunky, in my teens I developed chronic anxiety disorder as well as my diagnosis of M.E.
Now at 24 I'm proud to say that I have overcome my anxiety problems with the help of much therapy, and have stopped punishing myself for my slip ups in eating. Thats very much a long and traumatic story short.
Looking back, it now occurs to me, that the only element controlling my eating, was my own fear of my own punishment. I kept myself under a certain weight, while still unhappy with my shape, and still over eating and eating incredibly poorly, simply by shame and fear of eating. Anxiety therapy leading into control aspects with binge bulimia therapy kicked that in the butt. And I'm a better person for it.
The problem is, I now still eat, too big portions, a lot of take aways, even though I still loath how I look and how I feel, but I no longer feel shame afterwards, so, despite knowing that I need to stop doing it or I'll get both bigger and unhealthier, I still keep going.
I'm a mess, and I've got issues, theres no two ways about that, but at least I know it.
Please friends, I am a bright person! I am fun, and friendly and kind, but I am low. And I really need to learn from you how you stay focused, how you control the food you prepare and how you remind yourself, without punishment, that you're doing these things for a reason.
After many months of trying to hook myself on to various methods, I have a slow cooker, we're settled on skimmed milk, I have a freezer full of WW and Tesco Light Choices meals, cans of Slim Fast in the cupboard, you name it.
What do I do? What do YOU do?
Over dramatic as it sounds, I really could do with someone to hold my hand and be a guide through this.
Thank you!