SLACK ALICE
Silver Member
OMG... wot the hell is wrong with me??
I am in a state of ..'I dont give a dam''
but i do . this week i have been on holiday- nowhere fancy just Hastings and i have eaten just what i wanted Right ok you say - now your back- get back on plan . yes i can ... but im scared (dont laugh)
In the last few days i have had my dinner - ie mince tates and cauli, have had so much of it that my belly is hurting - but i want more! my belly is saying NO, but my head is saying ....get that apple in front of you , then eat that pkt crisps, eat any leftovers from his plate, is there any pudding??. later that night we went out and on the way home brought son some chips - i reckon i ate half of them aswell ??
why am i doing this?. i am so full and yet my head is telling me to eat and i cant stop. 3 weeks ago i weighed 15st 2. today when i came home i now weigh 15st 12lb. oh god i am so going wrong??
today i had sw eggs bacon mushroom and beans on 2 slices white bread, then had a 1/4lb cheese burger ,medium fries and a strawberry milkshake, was also going to have a small cheesburger , but son didnt want his chicken wrap so i swopped- god knows how many syns in that lot .I dont know why we have it as it is crap . I havent had tea yet-its 20 to 8, but i know soon we will have something.
I dont want to ruin all my hard work just over the reason i cant stop shoving food into my gob -its like a major drug addiction . how can i stop my head telling me to eat as my belly is hurting
I am in a state of ..'I dont give a dam''
but i do . this week i have been on holiday- nowhere fancy just Hastings and i have eaten just what i wanted Right ok you say - now your back- get back on plan . yes i can ... but im scared (dont laugh)
In the last few days i have had my dinner - ie mince tates and cauli, have had so much of it that my belly is hurting - but i want more! my belly is saying NO, but my head is saying ....get that apple in front of you , then eat that pkt crisps, eat any leftovers from his plate, is there any pudding??. later that night we went out and on the way home brought son some chips - i reckon i ate half of them aswell ??
why am i doing this?. i am so full and yet my head is telling me to eat and i cant stop. 3 weeks ago i weighed 15st 2. today when i came home i now weigh 15st 12lb. oh god i am so going wrong??
today i had sw eggs bacon mushroom and beans on 2 slices white bread, then had a 1/4lb cheese burger ,medium fries and a strawberry milkshake, was also going to have a small cheesburger , but son didnt want his chicken wrap so i swopped- god knows how many syns in that lot .I dont know why we have it as it is crap . I havent had tea yet-its 20 to 8, but i know soon we will have something.
I dont want to ruin all my hard work just over the reason i cant stop shoving food into my gob -its like a major drug addiction . how can i stop my head telling me to eat as my belly is hurting