Hey, Well I'm back with my tail between my legs, 3 stone heavier and not having a very good time. My doctor has upped my medication and added another type of anti depressant to my little list of medication.
I have severe manic deprssion. This is a type of Bipolar disorder.
Here is the Wiki if you would like to have a look.
For the last few weeks I have slipped into a hole of depression and have had a hard time pulling myself out.
To some people this may sound silly but in the space of 1.5 weeks I lost 2 of my pets and my job.
I would sit at home, eating, sleeping watching t.v and nothing else.
I'm a tidy and very clean person in my self and my home. I stopped showering, I stopped tidying cleaning and cooking.
I would send my OH to the shop to buy junk that I didn't even need to warm/cook and I would sit and gorge from morn till night.
I would hide bills and unopened post, so that Tim wouldn't find it, constantly lying to myself that I was fine and it was other people who had a problem not me and that it had nothing to do with my condition.
I developed insomnia and wouldn't sleep for days.
I'm a very lucky girl, my OH isn't very supportive with my weight loss but he loves me very much and never pushed me, just supported me the best he could with this hole I slipped into.
I have been living in a haze for weeks..... until Friday.
I went to collect my post and hide away my letters as usual.... when in the post came a magazine....... It was the October SW magazine, I rushed up to my flat and tore it open. I read it from cover to cover, I turned on the shower and grabbed the hoover.
I don't know how or why but this magazine awoke something in me, I found the me I had lost or the last few weeks.
I signed up to SW again on the Saturday and here we are.....
yesterday was a tad rocky food wise but nothing I cant claw back over the next week.
Thank you for listening!
I have severe manic deprssion. This is a type of Bipolar disorder.
Here is the Wiki if you would like to have a look.
For the last few weeks I have slipped into a hole of depression and have had a hard time pulling myself out.
To some people this may sound silly but in the space of 1.5 weeks I lost 2 of my pets and my job.
I would sit at home, eating, sleeping watching t.v and nothing else.
I'm a tidy and very clean person in my self and my home. I stopped showering, I stopped tidying cleaning and cooking.
I would send my OH to the shop to buy junk that I didn't even need to warm/cook and I would sit and gorge from morn till night.
I would hide bills and unopened post, so that Tim wouldn't find it, constantly lying to myself that I was fine and it was other people who had a problem not me and that it had nothing to do with my condition.
I developed insomnia and wouldn't sleep for days.
I'm a very lucky girl, my OH isn't very supportive with my weight loss but he loves me very much and never pushed me, just supported me the best he could with this hole I slipped into.
I have been living in a haze for weeks..... until Friday.
I went to collect my post and hide away my letters as usual.... when in the post came a magazine....... It was the October SW magazine, I rushed up to my flat and tore it open. I read it from cover to cover, I turned on the shower and grabbed the hoover.
I don't know how or why but this magazine awoke something in me, I found the me I had lost or the last few weeks.
I signed up to SW again on the Saturday and here we are.....
yesterday was a tad rocky food wise but nothing I cant claw back over the next week.
Thank you for listening!