chunkychicken
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Help,
My previously unshakable will power appears to have sodded off somewhere leaving me in a right old mess. I can't seem to stop (and I know that sounds stupid) putting things in my mouth.
I have sat and talked to myself about it (yes I know how that sounds) and all I can come up with is that I am approaching a milestone and for some reason that I cannot figure out I appear to be sabotaging myself the closer I get. In the majority of my adult life I have never been thinner than I was on my wedding day October 2005. I am now within 4 lbs of equallying that weight and being slimmer than I can ever remember being (unfortunately I still have another 5 stone (ish) to go after this - but still ...).
I thought I was back on top of it again yesterday - I went back to basics and had my packs at set times roughly 4 hours apart throughout the day and wasn't hungry - but came to cook my OH's tea and there was a prawn and a tiny piece of chicken, then a half teaspoon of the sauce (just to test the flavour... ahem) - then when he had finished it all and left it out (big mistake) I ate another couple of prawns as well.
What worries me is I am supposed to be battling my chatterbox - but it appears to win everytime. Its like I say "don't do that - you are not hungry and you will feel crappy later..." and the chatterbox says "shut up you can't stop me" and wham food eaten. Does this mean I am too weak to beat my lifetime of letting my rebellious child do whatever she pleases?
I was fine until I went camping on BH weekend - and I didn't cheat then. So why since I have come back has it all gone wrong?
Someone with wise words please help me out. This is the first time I have believed in a programme completely and I am sure if I can just get over this picking I will be fine to the end (even if it is a long way away) but I need a hand to get over this wall.
Very unhappy and disappointed in myself Chicken.
My previously unshakable will power appears to have sodded off somewhere leaving me in a right old mess. I can't seem to stop (and I know that sounds stupid) putting things in my mouth.
I have sat and talked to myself about it (yes I know how that sounds) and all I can come up with is that I am approaching a milestone and for some reason that I cannot figure out I appear to be sabotaging myself the closer I get. In the majority of my adult life I have never been thinner than I was on my wedding day October 2005. I am now within 4 lbs of equallying that weight and being slimmer than I can ever remember being (unfortunately I still have another 5 stone (ish) to go after this - but still ...).
I thought I was back on top of it again yesterday - I went back to basics and had my packs at set times roughly 4 hours apart throughout the day and wasn't hungry - but came to cook my OH's tea and there was a prawn and a tiny piece of chicken, then a half teaspoon of the sauce (just to test the flavour... ahem) - then when he had finished it all and left it out (big mistake) I ate another couple of prawns as well.
What worries me is I am supposed to be battling my chatterbox - but it appears to win everytime. Its like I say "don't do that - you are not hungry and you will feel crappy later..." and the chatterbox says "shut up you can't stop me" and wham food eaten. Does this mean I am too weak to beat my lifetime of letting my rebellious child do whatever she pleases?
I was fine until I went camping on BH weekend - and I didn't cheat then. So why since I have come back has it all gone wrong?
Someone with wise words please help me out. This is the first time I have believed in a programme completely and I am sure if I can just get over this picking I will be fine to the end (even if it is a long way away) but I need a hand to get over this wall.
Very unhappy and disappointed in myself Chicken.