My weightloss journey....I'll get there in the end !!!

Carolinep

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I've been reading other peoples diaries and posts for the past week and have finally plucked up the courage to start a diary of my own. Hopefully regularly posting on here and taking part in the challenges that I have already signed up to, will help me to remain focused on my ultimate target.....to be able to wear a much smaller sized dress for my vow renewal in Cyprus May 2011.
My weightloss journey has been going for quite a few years in fits and starts and total stalls and give ups and excuses....This time is for real !!!
I joined Rosemary Conley in Jan '09 and lost 3 stone by sept '09. I felt that the diet was far too restrictive , so I stopped going to the classes. I carried on going to regular spin and body combat classes at my local leisure centre which really helped to stop me from putting all that 3 stone back on !!!
In May 2010 I travelled to Peru with a friend and trekked the Inca Trail which was hard work because of the altitude, I was very frustrated as this would probably have been a lot easier had I of kept up with the weightloss and not just maintained for 7 months...hey ho...live n learn.
I decided to join a weightloss class as soon as I returned from Peru, I certainly didn't want to do Rosemary or WW again (been there before) So Slimming World was the winner. I joined on 7th June and have lost 3 and half lbs, I'm not very happy with the amount lost but I have to look at what I'm eating and make sure that what I am eating is actually free and also that I'm not going over the top on the quantities. My consultant suggested that I kept a food diary for the week to see if I could pin point what it could be that was slowing my loss down. So I'm hoping for better things on the scales on Monday. As I'm now quite focused on what and how much I am actually eating.
So sorry to ramble on for an age....yummy SW lasagne and salad with homemade free frozen strawberry yoghurt with extra strawberries mmmmmmm yum!!
 
Hi hun, welcome to minis and it's a great idea to start a diary. In fact - I find it useful to write down my food on here, that way other people can double check everything is ok. Good luck on your journey x
 
Thankyou for the lovely welcome Louise x

Feeling quite postive about losing weight at the mo, hope this continues as I am inclined to self sabotage due to inner demons. Hopefully if I can get some way to dealing with these things will be ok ..
So far the week has been really positive and I'm hopefully for a decent loss on Monday. We have been invited round to some friends for a BBQ tonight, just have to make sure I steer clear of all the bread buns ! Planning on having a few voddies and diet cola which I will make myself so I'll know exactly what I'm having. It helps that I've got to be early for work tomorrow so I never drink loads if I've got early work on a Sunday :eek:)
Hope everyone is having a great and positive weekend xxx
 
We had a really good evening at our friends BBQ last night and I managed to pretty much remain on plan as I hadn't used many syns during the course of the week, so the fact that my syns came to 19 is very good.
I find conversations with friends about my weightloss at times quite frustrating. Why do people think that getting to 9st 7lb is too light and unachievable for me, when they are the same height as me (5ft 3) and were that weight until they got pregnant recently and in the next breath turn round and say that when they got to 10st last year they felt really fat !! Grrrrrr
44lb lost and 55lb to get to goal !! I can do it !!!!!
 
Hi Caroline - welcome to Minis! Well done on your night out last night!

I know what you mean about friends comments - but I have to say that I'm probably the biggest culprit regarding myself. I got down to 12st on SW a few years ago, but in my head I was still 'the fat one' and couldn't see myself getting any further. Gave up due to lack of motivation and ended up putting on all I'd lost and a lot more besides! Not this time! I can and will be a size 12!

Good luck on your journey!
 
Thankyou for your message Spanx. I am really having trouble visualising myself at goal or even how I actually look now, when I look in the mirror I still see myself with the 3st of weight thats been lost back on...I know that I've gone from a 24 to a 16 but still see a fat person looking back.
Maybe I am being really hard on myself, it is a really hard journey to go on and when others around you..rather than saying "oh you've really done well blah blah, you look great"...it's "Why do you want to lose a further 4st and get into size 10 - 12, be happy cos you're now a 16 " Ahhh yes but I'm still over 3 st overweight !
I'm going to succeed this time and not give up... I can do it !
 
Hi hun - don't let other people stop you getting to where you want. Some people find it threatening when a once larger person loses weight, as they are use to having a *fat* friend that in essence makes them look good. (Sorry if that sounds harsh to your friends).

Just smile, and say you'll stop when you feel happy and keep on going, don't let them put you off, you've done BRILLIANTLY xx
 
Hi Louise, Thanks for that message of support. What you said is very true...I'm coming across it more and more as I lose the weight. Again this morning I had oh you look fine as you are, don't need to lose anymore. I think I'll keep conversations about weight loss strictly to on here and at Slimming World class on a Monday because it only winds me up. I no longer reach for something naughty to try to make myself feel better as I know that it doesn't (well maybe for 2 mins...then you get the why the hell did I eat that !!)
My circle of friends that I have in my life have only ever known me one way and thats as a fat person, even my husband has not known me as a slim person. I used to be at one time, until an unfortunate encounter put a stop to any chance of feeling great and worthy of a happy life.
Life is now on the up big time...so I have to rise above comments..stick fingers in ears and go lalalalalala thanks lalalala lol

Rise above it I will....this weeks loss was 2.5lb...making a grand total of 46.5lbs lost and I was Slimmer of the week. Just have to work out how to put my shiny on my signature xxxx
 
Well done Caroline! That's a fantastic loss! I think there's a thread about how to put stickers on your signature in the 'SW Off topic' forum.

Have you tried reading/listening to the Paul McKenna 'I can make you thin' stuff? There's some really good stuff in there about improving your self esteem and visualising yourself the way you want to be. I listen to it when I'm in danger of falling off the wagon!
 
Hi Spanx....I'll have a look later as the pooter that I'm currently on has a thing against copying and pasting, not too sure why.

I have the Paul Mckenna I can make you thin and also the one about confidence, must admit though it has really been a long time since I last played them..note to self, dig em out give em a play. Actually thinking about it I have a drawer full of various self help books...boost self esteem in 21 days...NLP...Supersize superskinny and good old Gillian Mckeith. That's just the tip of the iceberg in that drawer, dread to think what else is lerking in there !! Seem to remember theres a couple of Tracey Cox how to have hot sex hmmmm. We'll leave that one for now LOL
I really appreciate all the support that you're all giving me, help, encouragement, tips n all. It's FAB !! I just hope that I can even get half way to helping inspire others xxx
 
Hiya,
i have paul mckenna although i've not listened to it much, did manage not to eat crisps for 2 months with the cravings buster. This website is brilliant the support on here is brilliant. x
 
Hi Spanx....I'll have a look later as the pooter that I'm currently on has a thing against copying and pasting, not too sure why.

I have the Paul Mckenna I can make you thin and also the one about confidence, must admit though it has really been a long time since I last played them..note to self, dig em out give em a play. Actually thinking about it I have a drawer full of various self help books...boost self esteem in 21 days...NLP...Supersize superskinny and good old Gillian Mckeith. That's just the tip of the iceberg in that drawer, dread to think what else is lerking in there !! Seem to remember theres a couple of Tracey Cox how to have hot sex hmmmm. We'll leave that one for now LOL
I really appreciate all the support that you're all giving me, help, encouragement, tips n all. It's FAB !! I just hope that I can even get half way to helping inspire others xxx

Caroline - you are already inspiring me! You've lost over 3 stone AND you've walked the inca trail, which is something I would love to do, but know I could never cope with at the moment. I remember a few years ago, having a conversation with a friend about doing one of the charity treks - she had done a few - she just looked at me aghast and said - 'they are hard work you know, you really need to be fit and, er, healthy....' which I took to mean 'you're too fat'!!! And she was probably right!

Sex? What's that?! I think I'm a born again virgin!

Where are you renewing your vows? I go to Cyprus a lot - love it!
 
Awww Thanks Spanx..I never really think that I am inspiring people, so it's really lovely to know that I am in a teeny tiny way x
The Inca Trail is a fabulous target to aim for, I just wish that I had been rather more constructive in the few months leading up to it because another stone or so off would've made a hell of a difference. Hey ho you never know, may even do it again one day once I'm at goal !!

We're renewing our vow at St Georges Chapel in Paphos, we were going to have a beach venue but once I found out that we could have the chapel I was made up !! I am desperate to have a lovely slinky dress and to feel fab in a bikini and not have people wanting to call "Greenpeace" and to look at myself and think oh how I wish I had tried harder. Which is why I am keeping a food diary as it's certainly making me aware of all that I'm eating and not what I think I'm eating...if that makes sense.
Keep up the great work Spanx....We'll get there together xx
 
Weigh in day tomorrow, I'm hoping for good things as I have had a really good week food wise. Keeping up with my food diary certainly seems to be doing the trick. Can't wait to be 12 something then it'll hopefully soon be 11 something and so on...
I've been doing a lot of thinking about my demons as I really do need to address those if I really stand any chance of getting to goal and staying there. You know the one...that little voice inside your head telling you that you're not worth anything...go on buy all those goodies and eat them, you know you're not really going to get there.
Fortunately my husband (we've been married 16 years) is a lot more supportive than my ex-husband ever was, he was the one that managed single handed to do most of the damage. That's the trouble with verbal abuse, no one ever sees it or really takes any notice. Certainly stays with you and you think that everyone you meet has the same agenda and so the cycle carries on.
My poor husband has put up with a lot from me as I probably have put up with a lot from him in return. This is why we made the descision and have decided to renew our wedding vows. I am actually very surprised that we are still together but very very glad that we are.....if I can work that hard at saving my marriage then I can lose all the remaining weight !!!!! I can succeed !!
 
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