So finally after a month or more of waiting i am finally in the position to start CD was ment to have my first meeting thursday but asked her to move it forward as i can't wait any longer so its now tomorrow at 7pm. So sunday night i had my last drunken club binge for a while that no alcohol is gonna be the killer and yesterday we booked our holiday theres ten of us going to tenerife and there is no way i am going the way i am now, so i have my motivation, just deciding on what flavours to get.