yo-yo-dieter
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Hello to anyone who might read this
I feel like such a fraud. I'm forever starting diets and diaries only to fall off the wagon and abandon them but I've just signed up to WW online for the 12 week option so I want to see if I can stick to it for at least that.
I've woken up today at 14st 8.2lbs and I'm sick to death of being this heavy and would like to lose around four stones, which sounds like such an enormous amount to lose, so after a few days (or weeks if I am good) I just lose heart and think negative thoughts that it's just never gonna happen and give up.
After a few days where I have lost all the glycogen I unfortunately start feeling slim so inevitably think "I'm cured", stop counting calories (or whatever diet I am doing that week) and then my portion sizes get bigger and I start "forgetting" about things I have eaten yet cant understand why the weight goes back on!!
I'm at that stupid inbetween clothes sizes stage where a 16 is too tight but an 18 is too large. I daren't order anything on line because I don't know what size to order. Saying that I tried some cropped jeans in a 16 in New Look, which I couldn't get fastened up, yet a size 16 in Dotty P's was a much better fit so I cant even buy stuff without trying them on.
I also seem to own the world's best mirrors at home as when I look in them, I look slim, and it's only when I am out and about looking in mirrors in shops or windows that I realise just how fat and flabby I look.
Unfortunately I eat when I am bored, miserable, happy, sad - the only time I lose my appetite is when I am very worried about something and then I lose my appetite, but I don't want to have to lose weight by being worried to death about something!
I'm hating my job at the moment (have been seconded to another project and taken away from everything I enjoy) so I'm eating quite a lot at the moment. The only positive spin on the job is that it's 1.6 miles away and I have no choice but to walk home, so that's 30 minutes of walking I have to do or else I cant get home. I have asked my old boss to ask the new boss if they can have me back as they're struggling without me, but I wont know the answer until it happens and I don't know when Old boss will be able to speak to new one as he wants to do it face to face not over the phone or via e-mail. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
I've done so many faddy diets (and non-faddy ones) but they always seem to end with me putting weight straight back on, it's so depressing. I spent the best part of £1k doing Lighter Life four years ago only to lose three stones, yet put that three stones back on within a year of finishing and adding another stone for good luck!
I've got black binliners of clothes ranging from a size 10 through to a size 18 and I dare not give any of them away to charity shop "just in case I miraculously lose four stones"
If I dont go back to old job then I have 22 weeks left in the new job so I would like to put it to some use, so I can go back to old job and not be the fattest person in the office - well, I am 3rd biggest at the moment, but 2nd biggest seems to be losing weight so if I don't do anything then I could move up to 2nd place when I go back!
Anyway, I will try and post each day, and have nominated my weigh-in day to be Sunday as I tend to wake up at the same time every Sunday so it should be accurate.
Speak to you later
I feel like such a fraud. I'm forever starting diets and diaries only to fall off the wagon and abandon them but I've just signed up to WW online for the 12 week option so I want to see if I can stick to it for at least that.
I've woken up today at 14st 8.2lbs and I'm sick to death of being this heavy and would like to lose around four stones, which sounds like such an enormous amount to lose, so after a few days (or weeks if I am good) I just lose heart and think negative thoughts that it's just never gonna happen and give up.
After a few days where I have lost all the glycogen I unfortunately start feeling slim so inevitably think "I'm cured", stop counting calories (or whatever diet I am doing that week) and then my portion sizes get bigger and I start "forgetting" about things I have eaten yet cant understand why the weight goes back on!!
I'm at that stupid inbetween clothes sizes stage where a 16 is too tight but an 18 is too large. I daren't order anything on line because I don't know what size to order. Saying that I tried some cropped jeans in a 16 in New Look, which I couldn't get fastened up, yet a size 16 in Dotty P's was a much better fit so I cant even buy stuff without trying them on.
I also seem to own the world's best mirrors at home as when I look in them, I look slim, and it's only when I am out and about looking in mirrors in shops or windows that I realise just how fat and flabby I look.
Unfortunately I eat when I am bored, miserable, happy, sad - the only time I lose my appetite is when I am very worried about something and then I lose my appetite, but I don't want to have to lose weight by being worried to death about something!
I'm hating my job at the moment (have been seconded to another project and taken away from everything I enjoy) so I'm eating quite a lot at the moment. The only positive spin on the job is that it's 1.6 miles away and I have no choice but to walk home, so that's 30 minutes of walking I have to do or else I cant get home. I have asked my old boss to ask the new boss if they can have me back as they're struggling without me, but I wont know the answer until it happens and I don't know when Old boss will be able to speak to new one as he wants to do it face to face not over the phone or via e-mail. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
I've done so many faddy diets (and non-faddy ones) but they always seem to end with me putting weight straight back on, it's so depressing. I spent the best part of £1k doing Lighter Life four years ago only to lose three stones, yet put that three stones back on within a year of finishing and adding another stone for good luck!
I've got black binliners of clothes ranging from a size 10 through to a size 18 and I dare not give any of them away to charity shop "just in case I miraculously lose four stones"
If I dont go back to old job then I have 22 weeks left in the new job so I would like to put it to some use, so I can go back to old job and not be the fattest person in the office - well, I am 3rd biggest at the moment, but 2nd biggest seems to be losing weight so if I don't do anything then I could move up to 2nd place when I go back!
Anyway, I will try and post each day, and have nominated my weigh-in day to be Sunday as I tend to wake up at the same time every Sunday so it should be accurate.
Speak to you later