Smurfette
Silver Member
i was going to hide this in another thread as i have done the unthinkable. after thining i was doing well and posting about struggling with the 3rd shake....
i can barely bring myself to write this. after writing my earlier mail and being so proud of myself and my journey over the week (i was keeping an eye on my weighloss every morning and it was coming down) and thinking how i struggle to have 3rd shake and all... i met a friend after school and had every intention of having a coffee except she ordered food and then i did too and oh crap i ate it - mexican chicken and fries and i was thining oh well i wont eat the fries and i'll just sorta push it round gte plate as i'm not hungry and then it arrived and it came with rice and i bloody well ate nearly all of it.:break_diet:and i've spent the last hour trying to get sick and take it back but i cant make myself and i weighed myself and i'm 5lb heavier than this morning now :cry:and when i think of all the work during the week i could CRY why am i so weak. why am i so against myself...am i leading a different life on some parallel universe where i am thin and happy and i'm just meant to suffer in this one now i'm going to try and play tag rugby but my enthusiasm to exercise is gone and i just wish i had a rewind button. what good am i if i cant even control what i put into my own mouth. :cry:
i can barely bring myself to write this. after writing my earlier mail and being so proud of myself and my journey over the week (i was keeping an eye on my weighloss every morning and it was coming down) and thinking how i struggle to have 3rd shake and all... i met a friend after school and had every intention of having a coffee except she ordered food and then i did too and oh crap i ate it - mexican chicken and fries and i was thining oh well i wont eat the fries and i'll just sorta push it round gte plate as i'm not hungry and then it arrived and it came with rice and i bloody well ate nearly all of it.:break_diet:and i've spent the last hour trying to get sick and take it back but i cant make myself and i weighed myself and i'm 5lb heavier than this morning now :cry:and when i think of all the work during the week i could CRY why am i so weak. why am i so against myself...am i leading a different life on some parallel universe where i am thin and happy and i'm just meant to suffer in this one now i'm going to try and play tag rugby but my enthusiasm to exercise is gone and i just wish i had a rewind button. what good am i if i cant even control what i put into my own mouth. :cry: