can anyone help me I am desperate

Hi, I just cant seem to get back on cd again and I know its because i have a school reunion in 10 days time and am dreading it. So, its making me eat when I should be losing weight (which would make me feel better!!!) ie complete madness has set in!!! So daily I am feeling worse and more out of control and its probably too late to make much difference. Wish I had the confidence to just say s*d what others think, I just think I'll be judged for being fat and hence a failure which is odd as I don't judge others. I am bearing my soul a bit here and am desperate to get back in control. I am eating out of a fear of being not good enough as I am I suppose.
Sorry to be negative x

Strange the things our minds do to our bodies isn't it? Realistically, I don't think there would be too much difference to see in 10 days if you did SS 100%, although obviously you would feel more in control so I think just cut out the carbs, reduce bloating and the get back on track later. You are setting yourself a goal of sticking to CD and any little slip is seen as a massive failure with a lot at stake right now with your reunion coming up so your mind is telling you that you've 'failed' and you may as well go on a bender. Get yourself booked in to have your hair done and get a good outfit and you'll look great. I don't know how long ago you were at school but there will probably be people there who have gone bald/ beer belly/ grey haired in the mean time so no-one will look like their school photos.
Have a good time

I had a reunion this last weekend and was exactly the same beforehand! Funny thing was by the time I left I was actually quite confident and not wanting to sound *****y but I came out thinking that actually I'm looking pretty good lol

The balding, aging worse, beer belly and going grey thing is absolutely spot on lol

Thankyou both so much for your replies - you are both completely right and have made me feel much better. It really is too late to make much difference and I must just go and enjoy it - life is just too short. I love my "fat" friends as much as my other "skinny" friends. Just suppose I feel a bit ashamed of myself - and now I feel ashamed again because there are some other people who would give their right arm to weigh 13 stone. Sorry all and thanks for your kind replies SX