I was watching Supersize Superskinny last night and not only did I NOT find the skinny terribly skinny, I was nodding when she said she could never eat ice cream because she found herself counting the calories.
I do this constantly (with syns, obviously).
And it got me thinking about my relationship with food. It's screwy. I give myself "permission" to eat certain things and then, if my weight doesn't increase, I eat it every day. This can be an extra apple, bag of crisps, choccie bar - anything, whether I want it or not. 11am is the apple time. 1500 is yoghurt time. Crisps (altho' not so much now) are an afternoon thing. Chocolate drink as soon as I arrive to work in the morning.
Not weighing myself every day helps a lot, I have to admit, but this is a crazy way to live. SW (and you guys) has been a huge help getting me down to the weight I always wanted to be. But now that's not good enough. I want to be even slimmer. And I'm worried that if I get to that weight, will that be good enough? After a lifetime of seeing myself as lumpy and dumpy, can I ever change my mindset to see myself as a normal person with a very healthy weight?
Of course, that isn't a problem for a long while as at the minute, my mind isn't into dieting :sigh:.
I hope I don't sound like a fruitcake and I'm sure I'm not the only one who's spent a lifetime fighting the flab to feel that way (which is a consolation).
I need to sort out my eating once and for all!!!
Thanks for listening :heartpump:
I do this constantly (with syns, obviously).
And it got me thinking about my relationship with food. It's screwy. I give myself "permission" to eat certain things and then, if my weight doesn't increase, I eat it every day. This can be an extra apple, bag of crisps, choccie bar - anything, whether I want it or not. 11am is the apple time. 1500 is yoghurt time. Crisps (altho' not so much now) are an afternoon thing. Chocolate drink as soon as I arrive to work in the morning.
Not weighing myself every day helps a lot, I have to admit, but this is a crazy way to live. SW (and you guys) has been a huge help getting me down to the weight I always wanted to be. But now that's not good enough. I want to be even slimmer. And I'm worried that if I get to that weight, will that be good enough? After a lifetime of seeing myself as lumpy and dumpy, can I ever change my mindset to see myself as a normal person with a very healthy weight?
Of course, that isn't a problem for a long while as at the minute, my mind isn't into dieting :sigh:.
I hope I don't sound like a fruitcake and I'm sure I'm not the only one who's spent a lifetime fighting the flab to feel that way (which is a consolation).
I need to sort out my eating once and for all!!!
Thanks for listening :heartpump: