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I'm sorry this post is so long. I just felt like I need to share this on my Birthday as I'm reflecting on my 31 years of life!
I should start of by saying that I am American which I don't share that much because I didn't want to be treated differently as I have had some people being not to nice to me because of my place of birth. It's bad enough being the fat chick, but worse being the fat chick with the funny American accent. I do have Indefinite Leave To Remain and am about to send off for Natuaralization. I know you ladies won't judge me so I thought I'd share what I posted on an American Ex-Pats web site I frequent. I revealed my diet to them which was a bit scary. It's who I am and I am proud of it and I'm tired of hiding or thinking I need to be ashamed of who I am.
Before I moved over here, I LOVED-I mean I LOVEDLOVEDLOVED to cook. I can remember being two years old and sitting on the cupboard watching my mom make scrambled eggs and knowing how to make it. I think it stems from them owning a bakery when I was little and getting my sister and me up at 3:30 a.m. every morning and watching my whole family-aunts, dad, mom, and cousins make beautiful food all the time. Then when I was a bit older my parent's ran a small cafe in a posh area called Mountain Brook and I would help her by waiting on tables and I'd get great reactions.
Then when we moved over here..the whole way I cooked was shunned. They didn't understand savory with sweet. Cornbread and butterbeans. You know the whole Southern Home Cooking with butter and the lot. I gradually just stopped cooking and left it to my husband to do as he really enjoys it. I gained fifty pounds in five years thanks to him(it's nice to blame him and not myself, lol)!
I have recently started the Lighter Life Diet which is pretty strict at first and all I have atm is meal replacement packs. But, something's happened while I've been on this diet and I've discovered why I stopped cooking and the real reason was I felt guilty for comfort eating when I was lonely, mad, sad-the whole thing. It was because I had a gastric bypass in 1999 and I knew that eating how I was was just defeating the purpose.
I love it. I make all kinds of dishes even though I can't eat them. I've lost 44lbs and have another 67 to go. I had bloomed up to 256 which was bad being 5'3. Now I weigh 212lbs.
I cook all the time now. I love it. I make all kinds of dishes even though I can't eat them because of the diet. I have to say that the site Hexamgirl(thank you) posted Recipezaar: Where the World's Recipes Are has been such a joy to me. I've made so many things from there now. My family love you guys for it. LOL.
I just have to say that all my dusty cookbooks-I have tons are now gleaming and I've been pouring over them. I love having found my joy again. I feel like I've gotten in touch with an old friend again and some of the sadness I have had about not having many friends here has gone because I have a hobby again and I have made some friends that I hope continues after Lighter Life.
I should start of by saying that I am American which I don't share that much because I didn't want to be treated differently as I have had some people being not to nice to me because of my place of birth. It's bad enough being the fat chick, but worse being the fat chick with the funny American accent. I do have Indefinite Leave To Remain and am about to send off for Natuaralization. I know you ladies won't judge me so I thought I'd share what I posted on an American Ex-Pats web site I frequent. I revealed my diet to them which was a bit scary. It's who I am and I am proud of it and I'm tired of hiding or thinking I need to be ashamed of who I am.
Before I moved over here, I LOVED-I mean I LOVEDLOVEDLOVED to cook. I can remember being two years old and sitting on the cupboard watching my mom make scrambled eggs and knowing how to make it. I think it stems from them owning a bakery when I was little and getting my sister and me up at 3:30 a.m. every morning and watching my whole family-aunts, dad, mom, and cousins make beautiful food all the time. Then when I was a bit older my parent's ran a small cafe in a posh area called Mountain Brook and I would help her by waiting on tables and I'd get great reactions.
Then when we moved over here..the whole way I cooked was shunned. They didn't understand savory with sweet. Cornbread and butterbeans. You know the whole Southern Home Cooking with butter and the lot. I gradually just stopped cooking and left it to my husband to do as he really enjoys it. I gained fifty pounds in five years thanks to him(it's nice to blame him and not myself, lol)!
I have recently started the Lighter Life Diet which is pretty strict at first and all I have atm is meal replacement packs. But, something's happened while I've been on this diet and I've discovered why I stopped cooking and the real reason was I felt guilty for comfort eating when I was lonely, mad, sad-the whole thing. It was because I had a gastric bypass in 1999 and I knew that eating how I was was just defeating the purpose.
I love it. I make all kinds of dishes even though I can't eat them. I've lost 44lbs and have another 67 to go. I had bloomed up to 256 which was bad being 5'3. Now I weigh 212lbs.
I cook all the time now. I love it. I make all kinds of dishes even though I can't eat them because of the diet. I have to say that the site Hexamgirl(thank you) posted Recipezaar: Where the World's Recipes Are has been such a joy to me. I've made so many things from there now. My family love you guys for it. LOL.
I just have to say that all my dusty cookbooks-I have tons are now gleaming and I've been pouring over them. I love having found my joy again. I feel like I've gotten in touch with an old friend again and some of the sadness I have had about not having many friends here has gone because I have a hobby again and I have made some friends that I hope continues after Lighter Life.