Missyb - no more messing around.

...Hi all!

I hope you don't mind me crashing here as a new user - I've had a good look around the forums and I really like it here

I'm Becca, living in the centre of Norwich with my pet hamster and array of books, and I'm 25.

I started my weight loss journey with Weight Watchers on 03/03/2010.

My weight has been a bone of contention for nearly all my life - when I was a child I grew at a much quicker rate than the other kids, and as a result I looked heavy compared to them (which, for my height, I wasn't!) - this carried on throughout primary school and right into high school, where I was teased for being fat; the funniest thing is after looking back on photos of that time, I really wasn't - I was a 12 year old girl with a body of a 17 year old. I hated the fact I couldn't fit into clothes at Tammy and instead had to go to Topshop or New Look - which is ironic considering I've not been able to fit into Topshop since I was 19

Anyway, after years of teasing and general rubbish, when I was 14 I ended up basically starving myself for a good two years - I ended up in an out patient rehabilitation clinic (I wasn't light enough to be deemed properly anorexic, even though I was surviving on 200 cals a day!) and was under constant supervision from my parents and teachers. Then I met a boy, and I stopped worrying about food gradually.

I lost a lot of weight again when I was 18, although I was never "skinny", I'd put on a lot of weight when I was with my first boyfriend.

So, by the time I was 20, I was about 13st and a size 16. This steadily grew and grew as I spent more time going out with friends and my boyfriend, drank more, did less exercise, drove to work instead of walking etc etc. I would oscilate between telling myself I wasn't that big (mainly as most of my family and friends said the same thing) and absolutely hating what I saw in the mirror.

Finally, last summer I cracked - a pair of jeans I loved no longer did up properly and I decided to embrace Weight Watchers - I'd done the plan for a grand total of about 2 weeks the year before so I knew it worked. I started going to meetings and upped my exercise. Then I broke up with my boyfriend and had to move in with my Mum, and I couldn't get to my usual meeting. I tried to stay on track as much as I could but eventually I just ended up going back to normal.

I woke up on the 03/03/2010 and decided enough was enough. I'd said all year prior to that that I'd join Weight Watchers, that I'd adopt a Low GI diet (I have PCOS) etc etc, but never did anything about it. I had £20 in my pocket and thought signing up for a monthly pass would be the best option.

I weighed in at my heaviest weight; 19st 8.5lbs. I was mortified, my BMI was something like 46 and I generally felt so unhealthy.

I've never been a binge eater - or an emotional eater, I just ate and drank totally the wrong things and my portion sizes were ridiculous. I didn't take notice of when I was full and I didn't drink enough water.

I've been on the plan for just over 4 weeks and I've lost 23.5lbs so far - I'm utterly taken back by how much and I feel a bit guilty going to my meetings as a lot of the women there are elderly and lose at a slower rate, but I know this is just my month's grace and everything after this will slow right down. I think I'm prepared for it

Anyway, sorry for the essay, I just thought it would be good to get it all down!

Hi Becca and welcome to the wonderful world of the diary section
we all love a good nosey lol
look forward to hearing how you are getting on
I'm also a hammy lover and on last count had 9 Syrian and 12 Robo's lol

That's a lotta hamsters! I have a russian dwarf - I did have two but one passed away last year and the runt of the litter is going strong

Thank you for the welcome

Your welcome forgot to say well done on your weightloss so far that's a really good loss in four short weeks

Thank you Nicki and Nikki! Nicki, I got my hammy from Pets at Home, they have different breeds of hamsters there - are you near one?

Nikki - your stats are brilliant! How does it feel to be in ONEderland? I can't wait to be there, save me a space on the sofa

Yesterday was a pretty difficult day WW wise. My immediate family were all together for a meal (Mum, Nan, brother and sister in law, myself and my boyfriend) and Mum had done a massive leg of lamb. I'm not too bothered about lamb as a general rule but damn, it smelt nice. My Mum does the most ace roast potatoes which I couldn't have (oil heaven) so in the end I had 3 quorn sausages, some dry roasted potatoes and loads of veg. Most of the time I'm not really a sweet person, but my Nan had brought over a swedish cake type thing endorsed by Snickers, and argh, it looked so good. In the end I just sniffed it and tortured myself I sat eating my WW creamed rice feeling a bit sorry for myself.

I hope I'm rewarded at WI on Wednesday!

Aww god bless ya
I've done the sitting feeling sorry for myself bit
but hun having a little bit of lamb and a potato could have been fitted into your points and just add loads of veggie
one thing for sure, if you keep feeling left out and denying yourself a little of what your family are having you are never going to stick to the plan in the long run hun

really well done for avoiding all that lovely sounding food Becca!

welcome to the forums, well done on your weight loss so far - almost 2 stone off already - how great is that?

hope to see you about the diaries for a good time to come anyway good luck for wednesday WI xxx

You're all right - I should have at least had a slice of lamb or something. My problem is when I focus my mind to something like WW (but extends to all things, such as degree, cleaning the flat, writing and all the other gubbins I fill my time with) I end up being so strict on myself. I need to learn to relax - I'm going to be on this journey for the majority of my life (I may give up at 65 and just eat cake and get fat) so I shouldn't punish myself!

Anyway, I was naughty today >.< I woke up today and I just thought bugger it, I want a day off. Why the hell I chose the day before my effing weigh in god only knows! Rob had a nice slab of coffee cake this morning and I was so good popping my Fruities, and then I said "I want a beer, and chiquitos" so after my protesting on Rob's part we walked down there via some estate agents (we're moving soon, but not sure where yet) and I got drunk on 3 bottled beers (whoops) and ate fajitas. Well, I say fajitas - I also had garlic flatbread which is oddly pointed as 4 in the Eat Out book - me thinks not. I have no idea why I ate it because I'm sitting here feeling like a guilty gluttoness princess and scared that all my good work this week has gone to waste.

I worked out that I used about 25pts (if the garlic flatbread is indeed 4 pts, but I pointed as 5) and I had a bit of toast this morning so I've used 27pts today (I'm on 26!) I had 5 saved in the bank so it's not the end of the world but as a rule of thumb I don't eat my saved points, which is naughty - call it my comfort blanket!

I'm pretty proud of myself though - I chose the lowest points on the menu (bar the salads) and I left some of my fajita's because I was full. Before I would have just probably gobbled it until I burst.

Weigh in tomorrow at 10:30am....eeek.

I looooove chiquitos. Well done on the weight loss so far Don't feel guilty about going to meetings! Sod 'em all x

Oh this diary is shapeing up nicely to be quite a funny read already loving the fact you chose the day before WI to go off effing plan
was ver very funny
also love the Chiquito's ages since i've been seem to remember Jess and Adam being there too and MR H getting very very drunk on cocktails hahaha !!!

omnomnom said:

I looooove chiquitos. Well done on the weight loss so far Don't feel guilty about going to meetings! Sod 'em all x

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you tell em Jess

Kally said:

Oh this diary is shapeing up nicely to be quite a funny read already loving the fact you chose the day before WI to go off effing plan
was ver very funny
also love the Chiquito's ages since i've been seem to remember Jess and Adam being there too and MR H getting very very drunk on cocktails hahaha !!!

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Haha, I remember that. I think he ordered something spicy but pretended it was fine! I also remember you getting drunk at one eatery and everything was "divine" I am going to choose to pretend I never get drunk, especially not in public

The silly thing is getting drunk just gives me a headache now - I have no idea why I did it and I spent the first two weeks of WW not drinking a drop - this is coming from somebody who was surgically attached to a corkscrew (not a cockscrew, like I wrote before) and a bottle of pinot grigio last year.

Thanks for the comments ladies, I will find out my fate in about 3 hours - typical that I'm up early to think it over!

Heyho!

A cockscrew, sounds saucy doesn't it!

I lost 1.5lbs, and a loss is a loss - I thought it would be more as bar yesterday I was positively angelic but I'm deluding myself into thinking the beer probably caused the smaller loss. Anyway, I can't lose big every week otherwise it's just not going to be sustainable. I will think of those first four weeks fondly in my memory!

I've now lost 25lbs so I have a little star on my WW chart which is funky. My 10% goal is 2.5lbs away and I'm going to try my hardest to get it for next week!

missybct said:

cockscrew

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Glad I got here just in time for something I can get interested in

Well done on your loss chick - keep up the good work!

I still need to think what a cockscrew is. A screwable cock, that can be carried around? Hmm, I shall muse this one further.

I just broke a chair In fairness, it was already broken. But I've well and truly broken it \o/ I just hope the landlord doesn't miss it.

omnomnom said:

Haha, I remember that. I think he ordered something spicy but pretended it was fine! I also remember you getting drunk at one eatery and everything was "divine" I am going to choose to pretend I never get drunk, especially not in public

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Ahh yes I remember that night too, they screwed up our booking and stoopidly in my opinion offered us free drinks all night
by the time we actually got our food I was steaming hahaha !!!!
I seam to remember eating half your starter and your main Jess

missybct said:

I still need to think what a cockscrew is. A screwable cock, that can be carried around? Hmm, I shall muse this one further.

I just broke a chair In fairness, it was already broken. But I've well and truly broken it \o/ I just hope the landlord doesn't miss it.

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Ooeeerrrr, I just knew this was going to be a cracking read, no pun intended with the chair haha!!!

I honestly couldn't stop laughing when I totally annihilated the chair. I didn't just break it quietly or neatly, I went down like a sack of extra heavy spuds. The whole thing is shattered I have a couple of bruises and cuts but I was laughing so hard I only noticed them this morning!

Yesterday was a good day food wise, I managed to have loads for few points, if that makes sense. I took a photo of my dinner - soy sauce baked salmon with cous cous and veggies stir fried, it was lovely! Shame Rob was being a PIA and moaning at me because he was in a grump.

Today I've walked (checks) 5 miles - I walked from my Mum's to my Grandma's but she wasn't there, then stopped off at Waitrose and had a diet coke in the sunshine, then I power walked it (well, sort of) back - but my stupid pedometer stopped working half way there so although it says I've done 5.5 pts it's more like 7. Tsk.

Hope everyone is having a lovely day xxx