Yasmine
One last chance
I'm feeling really small right now. I've been crying for a while over this, but it's not doing anything for me. I need to get this out because there isn't anyone that I can talk to who will listen or who will understand. I find it sad that I rely on the support of people over the internet who I do not know instead of getting it from my parents. But I guess it's better than nothing.
I'm on my 4th day of slimming world and I'm finding it hard to eat right now, I've completely lost my appetite and I haven't been this way for a year.
As if it isn't hard enough as it is having to eat this way on SW without thinking I'll gain weight instead of lose it, I have my 'mother' making comments about the food I eat.
And this morning I was actually feeling good about myself, I could actually like my body image again and I haven't felt this way in a long time. I had a good day in college, everything was great. My mother said earlier, that my figure was perfect for me, telling me how good it was. Then about 30 min earlier while I was going to peel some spuds to make SW chips, she then switches it around, saying I'm gaining weight and it shows.
I get no ****ing support from her! I never have with anything!!:cry:
And now, I don't want to eat anything, the mere thought of food makes me feel sick . I'm already struggling with my weight issues, I've just come out of my eating disorder, and now I'm feeling like avoiding food totally!.
I don't know what to do, I hate this! she won't stop commenting about what I'm eating, even though the diet states that it is a free food. She keeps on telling me that the diet is rubbish and wrong :break_diet:
I'm on my 4th day of slimming world and I'm finding it hard to eat right now, I've completely lost my appetite and I haven't been this way for a year.
As if it isn't hard enough as it is having to eat this way on SW without thinking I'll gain weight instead of lose it, I have my 'mother' making comments about the food I eat.
And this morning I was actually feeling good about myself, I could actually like my body image again and I haven't felt this way in a long time. I had a good day in college, everything was great. My mother said earlier, that my figure was perfect for me, telling me how good it was. Then about 30 min earlier while I was going to peel some spuds to make SW chips, she then switches it around, saying I'm gaining weight and it shows.
I get no ****ing support from her! I never have with anything!!:cry:
And now, I don't want to eat anything, the mere thought of food makes me feel sick . I'm already struggling with my weight issues, I've just come out of my eating disorder, and now I'm feeling like avoiding food totally!.
I don't know what to do, I hate this! she won't stop commenting about what I'm eating, even though the diet states that it is a free food. She keeps on telling me that the diet is rubbish and wrong :break_diet: