LL - I need to this to suceed

Why when is it that as soon as I decide I am going on a diet/heathly eating campaign I end up with loads of stress. It is as if I am doomed. I need to write this down and keep it going to help me sort out my emotions.

I am and addictive eater, which is made a whole lot worse when I am under stress.

My dear daughter has just wound me up so much I could eat a whole loaf of bread, or preferrable 12 eggs sandwiches.

I need to get through this perhaps writing my anger and emotions on here my let them out a bit, so that I have some sort of normality in my life and can try and work out the pattern.

Well I managed not to punish myself by eating yesterday in spite of the stress. Whoo betide the reason for the stress was resolved this morning anyway. Just think I could of had a great big binge on my first day of trying again and what would that of done for me.

I did however eat more than I planned but it was free food so am quite proud of myself as I feel it is a start.

So onwards and upwards.

Well I wasnt 100% yesterday and I am still here. I am not going to run away everytime I have a blip. This is gonna be for life and I need to learn how to undo all the years of stuffing AND not get worked up if I dont succeed one day or two.

I know I can do this because on holiday I was brilliant around food, there was no stress either, so it can be done I just have to try and find the key.

Well yesterday was a brilliant day for me, no over eating, staying on track and not eating too many sins either.

Today however, feel a bit weak so gonna make sure I fill in my food diary otherwise well you know.

I must not sabotage my good efforts of yesterday.
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Well although I felt weak yesterday I had another whole day without sinning and am feeling really pleased with myself.

I also feel a wee bit better, not so depressed about this bloated body, as it feel a wee bit less bloated. LOL.

This site and SW online and filling in my food diary is really help so I must keep at it.

I am going away for a night and day and will be going out for a meal but will try and pick healthy choices, but if I dont then will be straight back on again on Sunday.

Pat on the back Mary.

Well been away having had to meals out and cava on one day, but you know what, so what, I am back home and on tract which for me is great.