Angela83
Silver Member
I really dont know what Im doing, I've been overeating for a while now and I just can't bring myself to stand on the scales. Tonight I've had crisps and chocolate for tea along with a few house measures of morgans&coke.On the water now and away to watch another DVD, kinda feels like the signs of depression but i really don't want to go down the route of anti-d's but on the other hand I guess they're there for a reason.
sorry Im rambling a bit and it maybe doesn't make much sense but just feel the need to rant. Why am I doing this to myself?? It so feels like a compulsion but I know deep down that Im choosing this, but why???
I think I know the reason why, I just don't like myself. How can I get to age 26 and not like myself? Im a great mum, I'm a great care worker and do the best to be a good wife and look after my husband.
I'm sure all this will look better in the morning but what plan I'll be on tomorrow, I've just no idea, still got the packs &made the funds available to see this through. If I could only get past this fear of actually getting to goal.
Sex and the city calls, just watched confessions of a shopaholic, liked that I could just escape into it.
sorry Im rambling a bit and it maybe doesn't make much sense but just feel the need to rant. Why am I doing this to myself?? It so feels like a compulsion but I know deep down that Im choosing this, but why???
I think I know the reason why, I just don't like myself. How can I get to age 26 and not like myself? Im a great mum, I'm a great care worker and do the best to be a good wife and look after my husband.
I'm sure all this will look better in the morning but what plan I'll be on tomorrow, I've just no idea, still got the packs &made the funds available to see this through. If I could only get past this fear of actually getting to goal.
Sex and the city calls, just watched confessions of a shopaholic, liked that I could just escape into it.