Cookeh
Recovering Cookie Addict
Day 21 today and still going strong, as far as sticking to LT is concerned I am sailing through it so there's no problem there.
The problem I'm having is multi factored.
A loss is a loss, sure it is, but when living on such a VLCD you do expect to lose more than you would on other plans, right, otherwise, why bother with something so extreme?
I have no intention of stopping LT, not eating is actually good for me and gives me the control I need to lose weight however, my mind is stuck on the need to be more active and this causes a problem. When I went out these past 2 Saturdays to get weighed at the pharmacy I had funny turns. This last one lasted hours and was in a constant pre-faint state all day (and I did have my shakes that day). I'm a fainter anyway, have been all my life, so I do have to be very careful.
*asks that you all get the violins out for this next part...* =P
The thing is I have no friends in real life, all my friends are online - considering I spend my life indoors this is hardly surprising. I've not been able to work for 4 years and I moved to England when I married my husband and have, due to lack of work, been unable to make "real world" friends as he is not the sociable type and spends his time online also (a long story) and I don't have the opportunity to meet people. I also have no family contact, I am estranged from my own family and my inlaws rarely keep in touch and never visit. My marriage is at an end, has been for a couple of years actually, and I NEED to lose this weight so I can be *me* again, does that make sense? I have no self confidence and when I look in a mirror (i don't even own one) I don't recognise the huge fat person that stares back at me, I can't relate to her, that's not me and I can't accept that.
This is why I have to do this, for me, to release me from this life I have made for myself and start living the life that I actually want and deserve however, I cannot do that until I lose the weight. I can't explain it, it just is that way. I feel confident that I can lose it this time around however, taking such a drastic measure and seeing only 2lbs a week down on the scales is undeniably heart breaking - I had thought this would get the weight off *the quick way*.
*sighs*
Oh well, I know what I need to do, water, shakes, exercise, seems easy when you say it like that doesn't it, but somehow, in reality, I am struggling with it =(
Anyway, so sorry this turned into a bit of a novel, it just came flooding out when I started typing but I do feel better for having vocalised my thoughts, so thanks for listening.
*goes off to open a bottle of water and do her best to drink it before bed*
^.^
The problem I'm having is multi factored.
- My days are short and I'm not managing to drink all my water
- My days are short and I'm not managing to drink all my shakes
- I'm confined to my flat most days and am getting ZERO exercise and it's affecting my losses
- Despite taking laxatives every day I'm still only *going* once a week
A loss is a loss, sure it is, but when living on such a VLCD you do expect to lose more than you would on other plans, right, otherwise, why bother with something so extreme?
I have no intention of stopping LT, not eating is actually good for me and gives me the control I need to lose weight however, my mind is stuck on the need to be more active and this causes a problem. When I went out these past 2 Saturdays to get weighed at the pharmacy I had funny turns. This last one lasted hours and was in a constant pre-faint state all day (and I did have my shakes that day). I'm a fainter anyway, have been all my life, so I do have to be very careful.
*asks that you all get the violins out for this next part...* =P
The thing is I have no friends in real life, all my friends are online - considering I spend my life indoors this is hardly surprising. I've not been able to work for 4 years and I moved to England when I married my husband and have, due to lack of work, been unable to make "real world" friends as he is not the sociable type and spends his time online also (a long story) and I don't have the opportunity to meet people. I also have no family contact, I am estranged from my own family and my inlaws rarely keep in touch and never visit. My marriage is at an end, has been for a couple of years actually, and I NEED to lose this weight so I can be *me* again, does that make sense? I have no self confidence and when I look in a mirror (i don't even own one) I don't recognise the huge fat person that stares back at me, I can't relate to her, that's not me and I can't accept that.
This is why I have to do this, for me, to release me from this life I have made for myself and start living the life that I actually want and deserve however, I cannot do that until I lose the weight. I can't explain it, it just is that way. I feel confident that I can lose it this time around however, taking such a drastic measure and seeing only 2lbs a week down on the scales is undeniably heart breaking - I had thought this would get the weight off *the quick way*.
*sighs*
Oh well, I know what I need to do, water, shakes, exercise, seems easy when you say it like that doesn't it, but somehow, in reality, I am struggling with it =(
Anyway, so sorry this turned into a bit of a novel, it just came flooding out when I started typing but I do feel better for having vocalised my thoughts, so thanks for listening.
*goes off to open a bottle of water and do her best to drink it before bed*
^.^