Klev
Full Member
So, in my first week i had not much ( i won't say no) trouble at all with not eating. Sure everything smelled good, but i knew what i was doing it for and still am doing it for. I am so sure that i have flipped the switch, that i will do this and that i will succeed.
I look forward to being in control and being able to control my weight in the future. Though i know it's not going to be easy.
So everything goes great, yet three nights ago.....
I dreamed i had a little bit of chocolate. Like two blocks from a bar. And i felt so flipping bad!! I felt so guilty and just knew i had ruined my diet!! I just knew it!
And when i woke up the feeling stayed. So i knew how it felt, and i will never ever want to feel like that.
So i thought, okay, i have learned from that, saves me trying out for real.
This night though, i had another dream. Again i had some chocolate. This time it were bonbons i found while cleaning out someone's house (beats me why i was doing that btw). But this time! i only realise like 5 minutes after i ate the whole box that i was on a diet. That i shouldn't have done that and that i (again) had ruined my diet.
It was a completely different feeling that came over me this time. I felt like, ah well i screwed up anyways, lets eat the other boxes as well (don't know how much chocolate was hidden in that house! It was like the witches house in Hansel and Grethel)
So i was really worried about what happened there :S (still in my dream) and then i realised, no i have to keep going.
Then i woke up and forgot the dream, it only came back to me when i talked to a college, (i slept at work).
So weird!!! I do hope those dreams stop soon, they are kind of freaking me out! Like they might be prospects of the future!
I look forward to being in control and being able to control my weight in the future. Though i know it's not going to be easy.
So everything goes great, yet three nights ago.....
I dreamed i had a little bit of chocolate. Like two blocks from a bar. And i felt so flipping bad!! I felt so guilty and just knew i had ruined my diet!! I just knew it!
And when i woke up the feeling stayed. So i knew how it felt, and i will never ever want to feel like that.
So i thought, okay, i have learned from that, saves me trying out for real.
This night though, i had another dream. Again i had some chocolate. This time it were bonbons i found while cleaning out someone's house (beats me why i was doing that btw). But this time! i only realise like 5 minutes after i ate the whole box that i was on a diet. That i shouldn't have done that and that i (again) had ruined my diet.
It was a completely different feeling that came over me this time. I felt like, ah well i screwed up anyways, lets eat the other boxes as well (don't know how much chocolate was hidden in that house! It was like the witches house in Hansel and Grethel)
So i was really worried about what happened there :S (still in my dream) and then i realised, no i have to keep going.
Then i woke up and forgot the dream, it only came back to me when i talked to a college, (i slept at work).
So weird!!! I do hope those dreams stop soon, they are kind of freaking me out! Like they might be prospects of the future!