Roosters
Silver Member
Hi guys..
I've fallen of the SSing wagon! and I'm truly shocked at how weak my resolve is at the moment. I'd decided that I would allow myself 1 'meal off' - and I did last Sunday, My family and I had a lovely meal at my favourite chinese, (although I found I could only eat a very small amount and stuck maintly to steamed seafood) .. I really enjoyed it, drew a line under it and went straight back to SSing.
Then disaster struck on Monday, my DD started being sick at about lunch time, nothing would stay down not even water.. it hadn't taken me long to realise that she had been poisened and it must have been by the landlord who had been gardening that morning had been using weedkiller and sprayed the area where Evie plays. I'm still totally dumbfounded that a respocible adult can use such toxic herbisides in our garden without telling us. Total negligence. ( sorry about spelling, stupid spelling checker )
Any way so off to hospital where various calls were made to various experts about the ingriedients of the weed killers and in the mean time poor little Evie couldn't keep anything down and barely had the energy to be sick, very high blood pressure and temperature. Total nightmare as all parents can appreciate. After an agonising wait she started to get better quite quickly realy, and is now back home. But I just feel so dejected with everything.. I'm so glad she's better but the night of watching her every breath totally afraid beyond anything I've ever known and I still feel like Im living in that bubble. But she's better!! it's crazy.. anyway, after not eating anything for the past 2 days I've just eaten a load of chicken, piles of brocoli and piles of carrots and swede. and I don't think I'm finished, I want chocolate, I want my mum (whats wrong with me) and I just want to feel like we're all safe again. (but we are)
hmm maybe I just needed to let that out coz I'm now crying my eyes out!!
Still want chocolate though.
I've fallen of the SSing wagon! and I'm truly shocked at how weak my resolve is at the moment. I'd decided that I would allow myself 1 'meal off' - and I did last Sunday, My family and I had a lovely meal at my favourite chinese, (although I found I could only eat a very small amount and stuck maintly to steamed seafood) .. I really enjoyed it, drew a line under it and went straight back to SSing.
Then disaster struck on Monday, my DD started being sick at about lunch time, nothing would stay down not even water.. it hadn't taken me long to realise that she had been poisened and it must have been by the landlord who had been gardening that morning had been using weedkiller and sprayed the area where Evie plays. I'm still totally dumbfounded that a respocible adult can use such toxic herbisides in our garden without telling us. Total negligence. ( sorry about spelling, stupid spelling checker )
Any way so off to hospital where various calls were made to various experts about the ingriedients of the weed killers and in the mean time poor little Evie couldn't keep anything down and barely had the energy to be sick, very high blood pressure and temperature. Total nightmare as all parents can appreciate. After an agonising wait she started to get better quite quickly realy, and is now back home. But I just feel so dejected with everything.. I'm so glad she's better but the night of watching her every breath totally afraid beyond anything I've ever known and I still feel like Im living in that bubble. But she's better!! it's crazy.. anyway, after not eating anything for the past 2 days I've just eaten a load of chicken, piles of brocoli and piles of carrots and swede. and I don't think I'm finished, I want chocolate, I want my mum (whats wrong with me) and I just want to feel like we're all safe again. (but we are)
hmm maybe I just needed to let that out coz I'm now crying my eyes out!!
Still want chocolate though.