i have. i badgered my GP to refer me, got approval for NHS funding, got my appointment at the hospital to meet with the doctors & surgeons. went for it, at 22 and a bit stone and i was the smallest person in the room by about 10stone.
i think that day was a massive eye opener for me. i cried all week before my appointment thinking at the time it was relief because i KNEW i was going to fix myself. at my appointment i cried too. on my way home my boyfriend just asked me, what if it they wont do it? and i just said, oh i'll do lipotrim again. he said ok as long as you have a plan.
when i got home i just had a moment where i thought, what the hell am i doing? just do lipotrim again!! at least then i know that if for whatever reason i cant maintain my weight, there is still a last resort. if i'd had the surgery and it hadnt worked, where would i be then?
I know how it feels to be in a state where you feel WLS is teh only option, and i will never judge a person for choosing that method. but i know for me who has impossibly high standards for myself, i would have felt that i'd failed if i'd had the band.
it was a huge decision to start the surgery process, but i cant tell you how happy i am that i have withdrawn from the process and i'm tackling it this way. i still run the risk of putting the weight back on, as we all do but that is my mission, to not have to go back there.
phew - that was cathartic! xxx