Hello everyone...I'm back!

Hello old friends.....and new friends I hope!

My name is Lauren (an anagram of Unreal! haha) and Im 25...I have done the Cambridge Diet successfully twice before (or is that a complete contradiction - surely was not successful then hey!) I lost about on average 2 stone both times and felt and looked great.

I last did the diet 1 year ago, stopped about this time - just after my boyfriends birthday, didnt have the strength to carry on as I had got down to a 10/12 comfortably and didnt feel the need to carry on doing it. I got down to 10 stone 8 at my lightest, and felt incredible, I ran the race for life and the feeling was immense!

Since then, I went on a 2 week hol to Egypt in Sept and rememer getting back and weighin 11stone 4, slowly since then, I have crept up to 13 stone.

Im so ashamed, and dont want to make excuses for myself but when I got back from holiday (probably 7lbs heavier aswell?!) I got made redundant and had 6 weeks to find another job, was not successful so was at home for 4 weeks......until December! Was at that job for 3 months got made redundant AGAIN and was at home for 3.5 months! So put on so much weight due to stress etc, was a really unhappy time. Plus my boyfriend moved in in January so that always means a few lbs gained right girls?

So anyway, here I am now - completely happy with my boyfriend living with me its been 6 months now but im so fed up of myself. Im moody, always tired, snappy, stressed - negative towards people, cant stand people, dont want to do anything or be active - our sex life is completely dried up and i feel so sorry for my boyfriend who constantly tells me how much he loves me and finds me attractive - whilst i feel like a whale and dont believe him, i feel like im that 10 stone 8 person in a fat suit and its so depressing.

So, not one to sit about all my life and feel sorry for myself i have considered this for about 3 months now but always thought no way not going back on it its been twice now i will put it back on - i started to think 3rd time lucky and i need extra help of why i have no self control and no willpower and am so complacent when i have lost the weight.

I have found a new councellor who does home visits and she is a qualified CTB and hypnotherapist and even wants the form signed by the doctors so i can do SS (no my previous one didnt want this she wasnt as....thorough bless her heart) so anyway....

I have my docs appt on Friday, hopefully get the form signed, and start next Thurs (23rd!)

Gonna start drinking water this week and have cuppa soups for lunch, just to start getting used to it. No white bread and no chocolate or crisps.....dont want that 4th day headache!

Is anyone still around from last year or are you all newer faces, be great to say hi to some old, and get to know some new! I feel like a CD granny:family2: - although its changed a bit now hasnt it!

Ok im really waffing,must go and change my signature as its all wrong now and is depressing me!

Lots of love and hope you are all well....

Lauren xxxx

Hi Lauren

Well done on getting back onto it, I was in a similar boat to you, I lost 2.5 stone last year and over the year managed to regain 1.5 stone, but I'm back on it now with a new counsellor who is also a qualified therapist ( I now have private counselling sessions with her every fortnight which are £50 a session but I think its worth it if I finally solve my issues for life!)

I've started thinking about cd differently this time, last time I got down to 11 stone where I was a 12/14 and thought I looked ok but never got down to my goal weight of 10 stone. This is what I'm now aiming for with the view that when I get there I can be happy and just watch what I eat so I can maintian rather than getting a stone away and still feeling like I need to diet!

Anyway just thought I'd say you aren't the only one and good luck in your journey, fingers crossed it is 3rd time lucky for you!

xxx

Hi Lauren,

I'm Nikki and have similar story to yourself... I too am back and starting as of tomorrow after many failed attempts this year. I think coming back on line will deffo give me the additional support I really need as well. Looking forward to getting to know everyone and once and for all get this blasted weight off and just be normal!! Best of luck with your appointment at doc. The sooner you are starting the better huh!

Hi Lauren,

My lightest after CD was the same as you! And like you have put on a lot. Started on Friday and determined to get it of this time... you can do it girlie.

Anne-Marie xx

See there are quite a few of us whom have regained the weight...... I dont know about you girls, but I know it was all my own stupidity and nothing at all to do with the diet itself! I just fell back into my old eaten habbits all to easily. Mind you I think the biggest mistake I made was never dong the maintenance plan. I basically dieted then when i got to 11st thought... thats me done!

Hello girls

Ahh.....its like a sigh of relief coming back on here I have really missed it to be honest! I do think I got a bit carried away with the whole thing last time and put a lot of pressure on myself, what I mean is, I convinced myself I was totally disconnected with food and didnt need it and was in the zone - well no thats not right because we are humans we are always going to have that emotional connection with food its just how you control it isnt it? Thats my problem.

My actual lightest was 10 stone 3, but that was so long ago and I was 2.5 years younger back then I will blame getting older haha.....

Just want to detox this week and get that form signed, I never thought I would be fat enough to be approved by the doctor to do this diet (as i said the other councellor didnt need it) but i guess i am, its serious now.

On a lighter note, I do think i carry the weight well and i always like to look nice, I think I would be shocked after losing a couple of stone looking back at a picture of me now - i bet i dont actually realise how big i have got.

Its just everything is down to my weight. I worry about what to wear all the time, i hte the summer so much i cant wear shorts and skirts my arms have got big, its just a depressing time and that is it!

Good luck to you too girls, Nikki, Princess, great to see some new faces here

xx

Hi Lauren (and all)

Reading your post struck such a cord with me. I know exactly those feelings and it has taken me about 6 months to realise that I hate this feeling of being fat again and I hate having a wardrobe full (and I mean full) of clothes that I can't get into anymore and more than anything...I hate the look on peoples faces if they haven't seen me for awhile and that 'I knew she wouldn't keep it off' look they give each other, so here I am. Trying Cambridge for the first time although I did my big weight loss with LL, it's all the same principle. I'm focused and determined and I'm hoping that being on here with all of you you keep me on the straight and (very) narrow!

And Anne-Marie, sorry didnt mean to miss you out!

Good luck to you all lets keep eachother motivated!

P.S - WHATS THE PORRIDGE LIKE!!!!

Hi Ann,

I too did the good old LL! The nice thing with CD is the choice of flavours, the soup is edable compared to lipos and the bars are delish! lol! Like Lauren and yourself, I am really down about being fat, i too like to look nice, but CANT as I cnstantly feel uncomfortable in my too tight clothes and am depressed when I open the wardrobe and see all my lovely size 12's that dont go anywhere near me now! Earlier on tonight I tried on my wedding dress!!! Oh my god there was about a 8 inch gap at the back and no matter how much I tried to breath in, the zip would not go up a cm!! I feel fat and ugly. I just hope this time I can succeed.

Good luck to you,x

Dont you just hate looking at all of your skinny clothes - its so depressing, I threw (well sold on ebay and prob bought a load of cream cakes with the money lol) out a lot of my old clothes as i just wanted to forget them as i gave up with myself, but i have kept 1 pair of trusty topshop jeans which i LOVE and know that 20lbs down i will be able to get into them again....

What do u girls do for a job? I am a receptionist, am really aware of my bloated gut when i sit at reception its so horrible, and my fat knees too!

Its not only about losing weight though, its that detox feeling, the drinking water and the clear skin, always worked for me and made me feel great.

At the moment im laying on the sofa feeling so tired and headachy, probably what i will feel like in 2 weeks time too haha the joys of the first 2 weeks!

x

No worries,

Porride is a bit marmite, love it or hate it, Personally I hate it!

I am a teacher although currently unemployed :0(

Can't wait to get back into my SOS and miss sixty jeans whoo hoo

I forgot about all the added extras that comes with losing the buldge.. Glowing Skin, feeling refreshed, energised and confident, ooh girls are you getting excited? Am so glad I decided to come back on this site!

My main prob is I work long hours, I train an IT payroll system across the NHS as my main job then I work extra hours (again for the NHS doing out paitent bookings) So work about 13 hour days. Also I do Acrylic nails in my part time. I do enjoy being busy, but just wish for a couple of months I could cut my hours right down and just concentrate on the diet and get into exercise! But this bloody credit crunch aintg gonna allow me to do that!!!

pineapple... no time to eat then sounds fab! lol

Luckily I've kept quite a few of my thin clothes but I did sell a few dresses due to the fact my arms seem to have trebled in size and I look like a Russian shot putter in the bingo wings dept.(not necessarily a female one!)
I work mainly from home which can be a bit of a temptation, especially with teenagers around who NEED biscuits, crisps and cakes etc! However, they are very supportive and say I don't have to buy any for the next 2 months, they will go to friends houses and eat theirs instead.

WOO WOO Miss Sixty Jeans! What is it about jeans - they are the break even/weight guide for all women!

Nikki your life is ideal though, on this diet - on the go all the time, always busy - you wont be bored thinking about food thats for sure.

Amm451 that sucks about being unemployed, such a tough time isnt it. I originally worked in HR, but just took a temp job paying peanuts because i was so desperate. Fingers crossed u find something soon its so rubbish isnt it...xx

Really must get up and do something now have been sitting here for too long!! x

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However, they are very supportive and say I don't have to buy any for the next 2 months, they will go to friends houses and eat theirs instead.

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Bless them!!!! love it x

Amm451 - you would think that was the case wouldnt you, but there is constantly cakes, lunches, biscuits on the go and always someone willing to tempt me!

Hi all, 2nd time for me too. I didn't do the maintenance plan either - Iam hoping that going up the steps properly and seeing this through, continually evolving etc etc will be the key. Best of luck to you all !! x

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Hi Lauren, Today is my first day of considering doing CD. Im both nervous and excited at what this might do for me. Your post really inspired me because you were really honest about the way you were feeling about yourself - i feel that way too.
I have no doubt you will be succesful with your weight loss.
I am off to Ibiza this saturday and am kicking myself that i havent done anything about my weight as i know im going to feel rubbish when im there.
Also another reason for me doing this, is that i have been single for 4 years, i was engaged and the guy was a bit of a rat, i was clearly more affected by him than i was admiting because ive never really let anybody close to me since. I want that body confidence i had in my early 20's cos right now i just feel as though my ex stole the best years of my life and ive just been living as a sexless being ever since.

Jeez its like therapy isnt it???

Best of luck with your weight loss - pop me a message anytime!

Nicki xx

Well it sounds like we're all in similar situations, a recurring problem seems to be that none of us followed the maintenance plan....this time I have promised myself that I will follow it because last time I got down to 11 stone, ate crap for a few days then lived on 500 calories the next few days to get the weight back down and the vicious cycle started....but then it got to the point where I stopped the 500 calorie days and was just eating rubbish every day!

I'm a recruitment consultant which involves a lot of sitting at my desk on the phone all day to people but I work in a small office where nobody put any pressure on me to eat, there's no biscuit tin or anything like that so it's pretty easy going food wise, although I do have a client lunch in town this thursday that I cannot get out of eating at, plus I'm a vegetarian so can't order a plain chicken salad or anything, gahhhhhh why can't restaurants have quorn salads

xxxxx